Freaky weird sensations bubbling forth from deep in my body tonight. Releasing old traumatic stuff from the body never ceases to be fascinating…if also on occasion annoying. I’d rather be sleeping.
At this point I don’t differentiate between that which is “withdrawal” (iatrogenic injury) and that which is “trauma” it seems to help to just pay attention to all of it as though it has something to tell me regardless of origin. Also, withdrawal is trauma in any case. As Charles Whitfield, MD has said and established, psychiatric drugs are agents of trauma.

The only discipline that makes sense anymore is surrender. That and then paying attention. I continue to heal. … [click on title for the rest of the post]

Socrates’ admonition to “know thyself” flies in the face of many modern ideas that urge us instead to “change thyself!” If we’re not happy all the time, we have a collective tendency to think something is wrong with us, that we should alter our mood with Prozac, positive thinking, buying or acquiring, working harder or seeking solace in relationship. In order to be OK with ourselves, we have to change rather than become curious about understanding all parts of ourselves.

Worse yet, there is the notion that if only we can get rid of aspects of ourselves — our anger, hate, greed, envy, sadness, vulnerability, our shameful parts — all will be well. … [click on title for the rest of the post]