Sometimes my vagus nerve hurts

me and paul

My mother is visiting. It’s going very well, but I need lots of down time, too. She is staying nearby in a hotel with her husband, my very wonderful step-dad. I have been cooking a lot and hosting them in the house for meals. It’s great to spend time with my mother after six years of being unable to spend time with pretty much anyone at all. – This afternoon I came upon this music. It’s soothing my vagus nerve. I figured I would share. Sometimes music both soothes and allows one to go deeper into the pain simultaneously. I find both things to be helpful to the long-term process of healing. … [click on the title to read and view more]

The gift of our bodies and the foods that we feed it


I wrote most of this post for The Receiving Project group which I posted about a couple of days ago. It’s got dietary info if you’re into that sort of thing. I’m healing and food continues to be a phenomenally important part of that gestalt. — Astonishing loveliness. This is a weird gift and may not mean much to most of you but it’s so HUGE and FUNDAMENTAL to me that I’m going to share it anyway. Yesterday afternoon I went to my amazing healing chiropractor man and he gave me a suggestion. … [click on the title to read and view more]

Thank you. Thank you.

I awaken to the morning cacophony of birds. As I eat my breakfast I am struck by the fact that I’ve not said grace before a meal since childhood. What’s more I am eating sautéed dandelion greens that grow wild in my backyard. This is truly the earth feeding me in a most immediate way. Thank you. Thank you. That is my grace for today. … [click on the title to read and view more]

The Receiving Project


By Jo Anna Rothman — About 10 years ago, as I was playing with different ways to not flake out on self-care, I had a thought that changed my life.
I had been in this process of giving myself a present everyday.
It was awesome, I love presents!
For once, I was following through! … [click on the title to read and view more]

Who am I? Meditative self-enquiry

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Gary Weber shares with us another lovely meditation in the spirit of Ramana Maharshi: Who am I? I’ve included below the meditation a bit of information about the man and his teaching. Included is a link to his wonderful and concise manual with direction for self-enquiry. This is one of my practices as well. I was delighted to find that my husband had one of the early editions of this little manual. It’s quite a delight to behold. I read it the first time in one sitting and it was a profound experience. It has the capacity to be profound again and again. It’s free to download so I highly recommend it. … [click on the title to read and view more]

Surviving antidepressants (and psychiatric drugs in general)


Those of us who’ve spent hundreds of hours with thousands of people coming off drugs still have the most reliable information available for the time being. This is an instance in which “peers” simply have more information than anyone else. Not only have we lived it but we’ve watched many others do the same. Alto Strata has been doing this for many years and has amassed a knowledge base that is truly impressive. … [click on the title to read and view more]

The isolation of illness comes to an end – IT GETS BETTER

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I know a lot of folks who are still in earlier phases of withdrawing from psych drugs are still feeling desperately alone and sicker than they ever imagined possible. It does pass. A lot of us have made it through that hellish darkness. Things really do get better. We come to thrive again. — My mother is visiting next week. I’ve not seen her in 6 years. I was too ill to have visitors who couldn’t abide the extreme nature of what I was dealing with when I was struck with the drug iatrogenesis (medical injury). That included almost everyone.… … [click on the title to read and view more]

Dear God and atheism too…


On twitter today someone accused me of being a Bible thumper. I found that rather amusing. I had tweeted a quote from the Bible…something I do quite often actually. She’d not seen me do that before and was scandalized. I have been a student of religion, spirituality and mythology my whole life. I have a degree in Religious Studies from UC Berkeley. – I find these topics interesting because studied with the right sort of attention they all point to the nature of reality in my mind. All world religions do this in my opinion. They are metaphors, really. Ultimate reality cannot be articulated. One of my favorite words I learned in college is INEFFABLE. That which cannot be spoken. … [click on the title to read and view more]

Voices matter and (so do other extreme or unusual experiences)


The below video is a couple of years old and I somehow missed it. It’s really wonderful and well worth watching. I hope to be able to attend one of these congresses soon. I am starting to entertain the idea of traveling again, though I’m not sure yet when that might happen. – “Voices Matter” is a documentary about the global Hearing Voices Movement, filmed at the 2012 World Hearing Voices Congress in Cardiff, Wales. For more info visit the Open Paradigm Project. Also: a collection of posts from the archives with some commentary on hearing voices. … [click on the title to read and view more]

Surrender to the process of being born


Sometimes our lives contract before they expand. We may be working hard on ourselves spiritually, doing good in the world, following our dreams, and wondering why we are still facing constrictions of all kinds—financial, emotional, physical. Perhaps we even feel as if we’ve lost our spirituality and are stuck in a dark room with no windows. We may be confused and discouraged by what appears to be a lack of progress. But sometimes this is the way things work. Like a caterpillar that confines itself to a tiny cocoon before it grows wings and flies, we are experiencing the darkness before the dawn. … [click on the title to read and view more]


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