I’ve been having a harder time coming up with stuff to write lately. I fear I’ve said my bit. But I’m always afraid my latest post will be my last.
The thing is, right now, one of my closest, longest term friends from California is visiting me, so that means I have less time on the internet as well.
There is good news however. She has been here since Sunday. She spent the first couple of days in a Bed and Breakfast so I didn’t have her here at home, but we spent several hours together each day. Busy days and I’ve made it and I’ve felt good. This is the first time in several months I haven’t had to sit down every ten minutes to recuperate from walking or even standing too long. On Monday we walked all over the nearby downtown for 5 hours. And yesterday was equally busy though we didn’t do as much walking.
Last night she came to my house. I slept 11 hours last night and woke up at 9:30–my husband woke me, I was still out like a rock. Clearly I was exhausted. I’m usually up at 6 or 7 am, but I’m still functioning! I just got up and so did she. I told her I need at least an hour of quiet time when I wake up which she gratefully welcomed as she said she is the same.
Today we’re going for a hike to a watering hole to swim and tomorrow we’re going white water rafting!! I’m being totally ambitious. But so far so good!
And though I am pushing a bit, I am also being gentle with myself. Monday we spent the day together and I was invited to spend the evening with my friend and another friend of hers who also happens to live here. I really wanted to go. I don’t have more than one or two good friends here and I was thrilled to meet her friend on Sunday. She is a kindred spirit. I truly hope to be able to continue a friendship with her after my friend leaves. So I could’ve pushed and gone to dinner to try to spend time with this woman and I really wanted to, but I knew this time, finally, that I had to go home and accept my limitations. After an initial moment of great disappointment I felt relieved. I’d made the right decision.
There is no telling how long this reprieve will last. I will at some point continue my tapering of the drugs at which point I may suffer more debilitating fatigue. I’m very grateful for this time, however, and it came at such a good time. And it will rejuvenate my mind and soul so that I can take on the next stage of my withdrawal.