It’s too soon to tell but I’m doing amazingly well feeling incredibly shitty. I’ve stepped up the withdrawal. After much deliberation and talking to so many people who have done this withdrawal thing successfully in a myriad of ways, I decided I’m prolonging the agony and it’s time to move along at a faster clip.
I’m decreasing my Risperdal now 1/36th of a mg a day. This last withdrawal started about 8 days ago. The first 5 days I cut down a little more slowly than that. It’s too early to tell how I’ll respond. Full withdrawal reactions can take a couple of weeks to kick in. I am, however, feeling it already. I will reevaluate if necessary. But I want to be off this last mg of Risperdal within the month. (consider it took me the better part of a year to get off of 3 mg of Risperdal—I did in that time also get off of 50 mg of Seroquel and 200 mg of Lamictal, however)
Then of course, I have the Klonopin to do still, which can truly be dangerous to cut down too quickly–we’re talking seizures. But I’ve talked to a few people who have done it relatively quickly too. The stories go from it taking a few weeks to a few months to a few years–there is that much variation. And finally the last 200 mg of Lamictal—it will still be a while before I’m off everything.
I have a good story in my history when it comes to benzos. Years ago when I was about 29 or 30 years old, I had a therapist who was a bitch, but she did have one thing right. She didn’t believe I needed to be on meds. With her influence I got almost completely off of 3 mg of Xanax in just a matter of several weeks. I stayed on 1/2mg for quite a while after that and then of course ultimately got back on benzos later, but the withdrawal for the 2 1/2 mg of Xanax at that time was relatively painless. I had only been on the Xanax a matter of months to a year or so, but I think it still bodes well as Xanax is the hardest benzo to get off of and some people after only a couple of months are equally addicted as someone who has been on benzos for years. I’m trying to stay positive. It may go well.
Also I’ve started Qi Gong and my teacher is wonderful. I’m taking private lessons. (She charges what most teachers charge for group lessons—the joys of living in a rural area!!) She is going at my speed completely and I’ve told her everything I’m going through. She is completely supportive of me and clearly agrees with me that drugs messed me up. We did both movement and sitting meditation. I hope to cultivate the ability to be with pain as I talked about in a recent post. The Qi Gong and meditation are key in this I believe. I also bought a book by the guy who I quote in the post I just linked to. Shinzen Young. I got it for 36 cents on Amazon! Complete with a meditation CD. The book is good—all about the meditative practice of accepting pain and therefore transforming it—I have yet to listen to the CD.