hiatus

(UPDATE: to be clear — This is not a complete fast. I’ve simply discontinued subscriptions to (most) news and blog outlets as well as disabling notifications from social networks etc.  I DO NOT INTEND TO STOP BLOGGING, but my muse needs to learn how to get inspirations from whatever I end up creating in this more internet free world. That means it’s likely there will be a slow down.)

I am taking a hiatus from things social media and internet. On Saturday Sept 28 I discontinued most subscriptions to news and blogs and I’m no longer engaged on my blog Facebook and Twitter accounts. I’ve decided I need to withdraw (in large part) the still considerable amount of energy I put into my life on the internet in order to reallocate that energy into things in the real world. This has been happening slowly over the last few years anyway, but given my still limited energy and continued great need for healing I am extending it further. I find that following those I follow on social media along with all the news and blog feeds I follow demands a whole lot of energy. Re-allocating it all seems like a very good idea right now.

In the last several days I’ve already been doing this I find that if I don’t apply that energy online I actually have more energy to utilize in the world. I’m hoping to start moving into interacting with human beings in the flesh with more frequency. This is hard to accomplish simply because I still can’t make commitments as I’m not reliably well enough to follow through. I’m learning how to create situations with friends and colleagues that take my limitations into consideration but still allow me to get out and be productive. It’s still experimental but yesterday I was able to shop at the (new) Trader Joe’s in my town, have a green juice with a friend from out of town, go to a reiki session and then go to a meeting of my local radical mental health collective. Four engagements in one day is pretty phenomenal…it is in fact a very rare occurrence and perhaps something I’ve only done once or twice in the last several years. And never did it involve any social engagements like it did yesterday. I simply don’t have that sort of energy most of the time. Yesterday was still a very challenging day, but I’m convinced I was able to pull it off because I wasn’t following all the emotionally enervating news I generally follow.

Because I have further withdrawn from news and info sources I will also not have the frequent fodder for posts on this blog.

I do not intend to stop blogging, but my muse needs to learn how to get inspirations from whatever I end up creating in this more internet free world. And that will take some time to emerge. I await with eager expectation, really. So I cannot predict how often posts will come. I’ve always been a muse driven blogger…so I await my muse, who really is in charge of this whole withdrawal from the internet and move into the world as well. I’ve come to trust this process.

The blog page is still on Facebook and blog posts, when they are written will be posted there and on twitter too, but those posts will be mostly automated and I won’t be responding to comments etc. Not for a while in any case. This is all subject to change once I get a feel for my energetic needs.

For now this is feeling great — several days in — I can’t say how long it will go on for but I trust it will help me find new sources of creativity and healing.

Thanks to all my readers and friends and colleagues!!