I will visit the shrink who prescribed for me today. It’s been many years since I’ve seen him.
I wrote this as a status update on Facebook a few minutes ago and decided to post it here too. It will be part one I guess. Part two will come after the visit. (part 2 now up: The final visit to the psychiatrist (part 2 of Goodbye psychiatry)
Today I’m going to see the shrink who prescribed for me while I was coming off psychiatric drugs. I’ve not seen him in many years since I wasn’t well enough to leave the house for a good part of the time he helped me. What is interesting about this man is that he believed me when I told him my experience and so he prescribed the multiple changing dosages I needed for all the six drugs I came off of. At the same time, however, he managed to show little or no interest in what was happening to me in that it was a mirror of what 1000s of other folks were going through. I became gravely ill as I watched 1000s of others becoming gravely ill in the process too. So in that I still felt totally disregarded by him. We have a epidemic of harm happening. He helped me free myself from the toxic substances and watched me become ill but continues to prescribe to others without owning what he is participating in.
I’m grateful I found him, however, because most people who have rough withdrawals don’t find a doctor to help them at all. This guy prescribed for me when I was bedridden and unable to sit up. I don’t know how I would have managed had he not been prescribing for me. I couldn’t even go to doctors appointments of any kind. I couldn’t leave the house at all. Had he not been prescribing for me I wouldn’t have been able to find another doctor.
Again, I’m very grateful that he was able to be present for me in this way and believe me even if he somehow never got it about everyone else. It’s like god knows what he’s done with the volume on his cognitive dissonance 😛
I decided to go see him today. It’s been about maybe 6 or 7 years since I’ve seen him. He remotely prescribed the last tiny dose of klonopin I took on February 9, 2010 when I finally finished the 6 year withdrawal from the 6 drug cocktail.
Today I will thank him and make a formal goodbye to him and psychiatric “care.” And I’ll share with him whatever he’s interested in knowing about too. He’s a remarkably friendly guy…and has really good energy. I always loved visiting him when I was able to see him. Really. So this will be interesting.
And to be clear…this is not the man who got me on the massive cocktail to begin with and I’m clear on the fact that this guy doesn’t use massive cocktails like that with his patients. He’s got a lighter touch in that regard, in general. I suppose that might be why he didn’t think I was representative of anything he’s involved in. Who knows.
SEE PART TWO OF THIS STORY HERE: The final visit to the psychiatrist (part 2 of Goodbye psychiatry)
Other posts that might be of interest:
Bridging Patient-Professional Divide
Being the empowered patient
The divide between client/patient/consumer and professionals (with list of links)
healing journey — part 1 and 2 (brief thoughts from this morning to a friend)
A doctor who talks sense about the all too frequent use of coercion in medicine
Informed Choice: Pro-information and pro-choice when it comes to drugs and medications
Words for all in the “helping” professions (and for any human who wants to benefit others)
Medical compliance? Adherence? No. My MDs are my PARTNERS
Letters to my shrink
Please do not attempt to discontinue psych drugs without first very carefully educating yourself on the risks involved so that you might minimize the chances of developing grave iatrogenic illness if you decide to withdraw: Psychiatric drug withdrawal and protracted withdrawal syndrome round-up
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