note: I continue to use social media as a private citizen and while I may continue to make posts on the site occasionally I will not be using social media to get them out there. If you want to be sure you get updates I suggest signing up for the emails in the right hand column on this site. There are two options, one managed by wordpress the other by feedburner. Emails go out every time a new post is published.
I deleted all my widely public Facebook accounts and went back to a small semi-private page. I’ve also changed the name of my twitter account so it’s no longer associated with this work. And I’ve altered the title of the blog. The title and subtitle have been reversed. It’s time to change the emphasis. (Everything Matters: Beyond Meds). This is all part of the evolution of this transformative healing process I embarked upon over a decade ago, now. I no longer have the same relationship to the work and thus how I put it out into the world is also changing.
I’m sharing the last couple of status updates from my very small and private Facebook account and some comments so that folks might know I’ve made these changes and am no longer particularly available via social media. I’m sharing that process as it seems to still be in the spirit of what this site was created (at least in part) to show: The psychiatric drug withdrawal process and the transformative healing that continues which also involves the changing narrative and story attached to the experience I’ve been sharing.
I’ve gone from posting several times a day every day on this site to now only posting a few times a month. It’s likely the frequency of posting will continue to dwindle.
Not only is my injured brain healing, it seems I’m also growing new neuropathways as transformation continues. Not always a fun process by any means, but it is always fascinating.
I’ve been shutting down a good portion of my social media. It’s been feeling very good. I now only have 80 some friends here on Facebook and have no more accounts dedicated to the blog. The withdrawal from the website has been taking several years. It was like an appendage…and it did literally keep me alive for a long time and so it was hard to let go of, but now it feels like the most important thing I can do. Less and less identification with that part of my life. Doesn’t mean I won’t use what I’ve learned from having lived all of that. It’s impossible to do that and that would be a form of denial if I did, but it does mean I’m no longer identified with the story told on the site like I was and I intend to continue moving away from it.
Also below I’m sharing a response from someone else who has been my friend for many years since I first started work on the site. He moved on a long time ago…at one time he, too was a victim of psychiatric drugging but has healed and works full-time, often traveling all over the world in a position of high responsibility. Something he was unable to do while drugged. We do, indeed heal and thrive both:
So, in response to the above comments I made:
Friend: I had the similar (albeit less public) experience. While blogging and connecting with others was so helpful and many deep connections were created there came a point where I needed to focus on who I was becoming off meds. So proud of you and your talent and your strength. XOXO.
Me: you managed to pull that off a long long time ago…you’re out there doing all sorts of wonderful stuff…love you and your strength too! xo
Friend: It seems so long and such a short time ago. I will always carry ghosts and scars from that experience but the process of making it out of that gave me the strength to face future challenges.
Me: I understand. For me because of my work history in the (mental illness) system and the decades I was on the drugs, those scars run so deep I’m still getting to the root of them and cleaning out trauma etc. Working with so many people so gravely harmed via the blog maintained a lot of those injuries…so getting unentangled from all of that has been a process too. It’s so heartbreaking to see how many people are still being harmed. I’ve also seen so many folks like you get off and get healthy during the time I’ve still needed to be doing intensive healing etc…that’s been lovely to see.
(it’s about boundaries and sometimes they’re not fun or easy to make. I love so many people who I cannot help. I love everyone who is hurting because of poor treatment by the psychiatric establishment AND I can’t help them all personally. That is okay. It’s okay to have a good life and respect the needs of this body/mind/spirit so that it can thrive. Service will not end. Healing continues and more will be revealed. In surrender to my healing process I do not know what the future holds or where exactly it will bring me. This is okay. This is wonderful.)
I’m sorry to those I may have hurt by no longer being available via various forms of social media. I know what that feels like and this process at times has been quite painful for me as well. I often feel the pain of others and that’s actually part of why I need to continue to change the way I do this work.
This work never ends, but it does, indeed, evolve. I remain in surrender and service to this unfolding process which is a mystery I will never understand.
“Those who do not have power over the story that dominates their lives, the power to retell it, rethink it, deconstruct it, joke about it, and change it as times change, truly are powerless.” — Salman Rushdie
And to be clear: I love social media and I firmly believe that had the internet (and then) social media not exist I might not have survived my ordeal. I mean that literally. I have learned to USE social media in ways that deeply and profoundly serve me. I continue to do that. There is always good and bad with everything. Sculpting social media so that it can be a positive force in our lives isn’t that difficult I’ve found and I’m very grateful for social media. Here is a video about my experience with Twitter which will always have a special place in my heart even if it’s no longer the same experience it was then.
Twitter as therapeutic agent:
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