I took the site down for a couple of weeks. I need to move on and I intend to do that. Thing is 100s of you have requested access so I've put the site back up -- I need to ask that no one contact me for consultations or assistance. I have found that contact from 100s of despairing people every year keeps my PTSD alive in ways that are frankly unhealthy. I can't help you all individually. January 2018 - update: I have discovered there is no moving on really...but there is making new healthier boundaries. this work is in my bones. the alchemy continues.