I am 53 years old. I spent the night detoxing from a rape that happened when I was 16. It’s no joke — that trauma embeds in the body if we don’t deal with it when it happens. In my day they told us we were crazy and drugged the crap out of us. We tended to comply in our shame and horror. Let’s all speak up and put an end to it now. …
We are, in large part, and among many other things, an expression of the ecosystem of our bodies which include bacteria, virus, fungi and other parasites. Successful “detoxification” is really largely about bringing these microorganisms and the rest of our being into balance since most of them cannot be gotten rid of entirely in any case. In many instances we don’t want to get rid of them as in the right amount they serve a good function. We are all made up of these things in different ratios by design, really.
I am sharing some musings and responses to emails again. I collect bits and pieces I’m writing elsewhere and sharing here from time to time since people seem to enjoy that and have asked that I continue doing it. As before I’ve included links to old posts for more on similar topics below each little blurb. Here – from the last week:
I’m doing detox…hardcore, heavy metals, viruses, candida (and whatever else is being pulled out as I do this thing)…as it comes out so does the psychic sludge…all correlated with shit in the physical body, yes…really amazing and wonderful and beautiful…if also rough going…
This is a long post that cuts and pastes all my documentation on this program. At the end is the original story of what happened while I was there. It’s not the neatest documentation, I just want to be sure it’s available information. If anyone is having a complicated withdrawal THIS IS NOT THE PLACE TO GO.
For background info read this here. I wrote this letter to the director of the detox place I went to about 8 days ago. He responded with one sentence about an hour later saying, “I am pulling together information and will send you a detailed response.” The subject line from me read: “I hope you […]
I found this written by a woman name Ricky Buchanan. I’ve discovered by creeping around the CFS and Fibromyalgia boards online that my day to day lived reality is like theirs. I am agnostic about giving myself such a label but I gain much support and don’t feel as alone when I interact with people […]
Okay. I’ve arrived. I actually came in yesterday as the trip here–two days in the car, was rough. I feel a bit like I’m in the twilight zone. In some good ways, and some not so good. The first thing I did before entering the center was go see a doc. She was the most […]
I have very little energy—much less than usual and it’s a chronic and serious issue already. Today I talked to my journalist friend who is following my story. He told me everyone he’s interviewed for his book who was detoxing from benzos at one time or another said, “I felt like I was dying.” I […]
I’m doing more research on the detox facility. It bugs me that I know a lot of my readers who have gone through withdrawal are so wed to the “it takes forever and you gotta suffer real bad” theory. My experience with a whole host of other readers is that is certainly not the case […]