Shades of awakening: when what gets labeled psychotic or hypersensitive is really about becoming conscious

THIS IS HAPPENING NOW…it’s day 3…I’ve listened to a few of the interviews…they’re all really good and this is truly an important and cutting edge event…you can still listen for free now and there is an option to buy the whole series. It’s so exciting to see the huge positive response as we bring together these cutting edge thought leaders for 3 days of informative and inspirational interviews covering a range of topics on spiritual emergency, consciousness, and de-stigmatizing mental illness. … [click on title to read and view more]

When we are told our experience is too ugly to be heard…

In the wake of the backlash I’ve experienced from having posted: Carrie Fisher’s urn is a giant prozac pill — this is my heart-felt response I wrote:

When people are gravely harmed and they open their mouths to simply share their experience they are told they’re too extreme. …it’s a conundrum…when we are told our experience is too ugly to be heard. We are in essence being told to shut up. The mainstream narrative is dangerous when it comes to psych meds (and many other things)…this needs to be confronted. One way or another. Sometimes it’s scary. This is simply true.

I want to also say that I have great respect for Carrie Fisher who was clearly a wonderful woman who spoke her own mind. I have no bone to pick with her. I am confronting the mainstream narrative and media which will use anything to support itself. Carrie was a victim of this narrative like so many other of the people I’ve loved and lost in this world. …

I was a psychiatric success story

I was a psychiatric success story. My mother used to go to NAMI meetings and was able to share the wonderful news about how successful my forced and violent psychiatric treatment had been. I was working a respectable job with respectable responsibilities.The other mothers hung on every word. My psychiatrist too, believed I was a success story. He had done his job well. …

Supplements and the highly-sensitive body

Below is a response I wrote to someone about supplements for the highly sensitive body. Many of us who come off of psychiatric drugs develop hyper-sensitivities to many substances and foods. Many of us are highly sensitive to begin with as well.

Herbs heal the nervous system (and soul) in profound ways

Update Sept. 2016: I had reason to remember this post today since I’m off to a local’s house to pick up some branches so that I can harvest the bark. I’m very excited to have some local bark. This is a lovely herbal medicine that I am now using in a formula from Chinese Medicine that helps soothe the soul. A shen tonic which includes polygala, poria, astragulus, licorice, and reishi. Yes, I’m now learning a bit about chinese herbalism and I can finally do formulas because I continue to heal and am no longer so hypersensitive.

Food sensitivities, histamine and mast cell activation syndrome

(Note: This may be of interest to you if you have protracted psychiatric drug withdrawal issues, if you have autoimmune issues, and also other chronic illnesses like CFS and/or fibromyalgia.) My food sensitivities have continued. I tend to learn a whole lot by paying attention to them and they oddly allow me access to parts of the psyche for healing when I sit with them in meditation. It’s almost as though there is a psychedelic aspect to my experience with them. I am not alone in this. I’ve found others who have this experience too. They are difficult to live with and I continue to work with them from as many different windows as I can. — In western medicine they are best explained and understood as a form of mast cell dysregulation, I’ve found. I’ve not ever gone into that in any explicit fashion on this blog because I’ve tried to keep it simple and so I’ve talked about histamine intolerance mostly, which is often a manifestation of mast cell dysregulation. … [click on title for the rest of the post]

Multiple drug sensitivity

UPDATE 2018: I later learned that doctors, even this kind man who validated me couldn’t and didn’t know how to heal me or, beyond validating my experience, know how to help with supplements or anything at all really. I learned that in the end the sort of healing I was going through was so radical […]

It gets better: Sleep, insomnia and iatrogenic injury

The dangerousness of insomnia as associated with psychiatric drug withdrawal syndromes. This is a post about what it was like at the time in 2011 and further information to learn how to get through it and heal. Because it does get better. … [click on title for the rest of the post]