empathy, awareness of the body, SNRI withdrawal and self-inquiry…(collected brief thoughts on various things)

sometimes I feel as powerful as I feel helpless other times. I felt somewhat helpless when I first mused about the ridiculousness of academics and scientists thinking they’re onto something brand new when we’ve known some of this stuff for many years. Today I feel powerful BECAUSE I’ve known this stuff for so many years and I continue to heal. As I continue to heal what I know becomes embodied. …

healing through self-inquiry and mindfulness

I found the below video interesting because many of my (internal) “programs” got scrambled with the (pharmaceutically induced) brain injury. All sorts of the autonomic nervous system programs which control all of the functions in the body (all those mentioned in the video and more). Losing the “I” program (the sense of individual identity) — disengaging from […]

On sanity and self-inquiry

Getting sane with inquiry means what was a minuscule awareness of my thoughts became a broader awareness of thoughts. It’s like being in a dark room with just a flickering light. Perhaps I’ve always been aware of this light, but when I started doing inquiry I began to investigate these flickers of light. What is it that is aware? What is hiding in the shadows where my beliefs are? I was the caretaker for a mansion full of beliefs that I imagined defined my identities and the vast majority of these were painful. Well, actually all of them were painful! … [click on title to read and view more]

Body-Centered Inquiry

My healing trajectory continues and I am still facing very difficult periods of time as my brain heals from the iatrogenic injury. The healing process continues to be non-linear and erratic. What is different now is that I ride the waves with a grace that would have been unconceivable to me even 6 months ago. There is joy now even in the difficulties. This doesn’t mean I don’t cry and despair a bit even now…but now I do it with a sense of joy in knowing that I am healing and I am healing by letting my body/mind/spirit do what they all need to do. There is a freedom in giving oneself deep permission to feel it all. … [click on title for the rest of the post]

Meditative Self-Inquiry: What is our true nature?

Self-inquiry is a practice of meditation that has it’s roots in the teachings of Ramana Maharshi. Here Adyashanti shares with us how to begin a practice of self-inquiry.
What is our true nature?

One of three guided meditations/talks from Adyashanti’s ‘True Meditation’. This one focuses on “Meditative Self-Inquiry”. (commentary and links to some other work by Adyashanti on Beyond Meds too)

A little bit of everything…

Coming to love our “negative” feelings is part of the deal when we’re healing. The parts we like the least must be incorporated. You’ve got to love those babies too. The problems start when we deny of those types of feelings. That’s when they get ugly. No feelings are bad. Feelings are neutral. feeling them is not acting on them. We must feel them if we hope to ever come into flow. …

Love without agenda

I’m an evolutionary freak (medicine/witchy woman) and I intersected with psychiatry. Nothing can stop me now. Psychiatry made me into their own personal Frankenstein. I am now the industry’s worst nightmare. I am rising that no one need ever go through that nightmare again. And we are legion…the younger generations are emerging fulling conscious of this nightmare.  We are healing one another by speaking aloud what we KNOW. Thank you to my younger brothers and sisters who are bringing in pieces that I also need. I am grateful to you for your love and service.  …

How in-charge are we really?

Ready?

Fall in love. Right now.

Make yourself like a food you hate.

Intentionally send those panic attacks and depressions packing. Yes, you’ve probably tried to control feelings a few zillion times before, but surely this time will be the charm. …

Reclaiming myself on the ground of myself

by Jen Peer Rich — Until I let go of everything I trust and depend on externally, I am beholden others interpretations of what has value and what does not. But as I look deeper inside, when I am intimate within myself, I see a pathway to the locations and limitations of my conditioning and these pathways are what I am interested in getting into, so that I can explode again, so that I keep blowing my own mind. …