Email to yet another misguided professional

Some of you will remember I have a series of emails I’ve sent to perpetrating professionals of various sorts. The collection is called Letters to my Shrink but now includes a couple of medical doctors and various sorts of therapists etc. The below letter is to a craniosacral therapist who also has a doctorate in naturopathy that I just recently went to specifically for craniosacral therapy as it’s a modality I’ve had very good experiences with. One of my closest friends that I’ve been friends with for decades is a craniosacral therapist and she learned on me back when she was studying. From that point on it’s always been a modality of deep healing for me…

short and sweet: 6 brutal truths (parts)

Once we’re adults we cannot expect another adult to fix the infantile parts of ourselves that were never appropriately nurtured by our parents. Healing is about becoming conscious of those parts and then learning to reparent those parts for ourselves. No one else will ever know what all the little hurt children within us need. […]

Healing from trauma is an unlayering process

Healing from trauma as well as the waking up process, in general, is often experienced as an unlayering process. Lately I’ve been revisiting the oldest wounding again. It’s been a doozy. It’s got correlates in the body (and shows up as chronic illness via the psych drug damage–everything matters and everything is connected!) and so I’ve not been feeling well either. It’s bringing up all the stuff about the system and healers that played into my even earlier wounding.

the mental health professionals who perpetrate against us

I think a lot about why I can’t work therapeutically with people in the mental illness system. I have found that the same traumatic dynamic comes up with some frequency outside that system too with “healers” of all stripes really…alternative doctors, energy workers, therapists of various sorts, you name it…if they are in the healing profession they’ve hurt me and people like me. Some of us are like magnets to people’s ugliness. This is a sort of karmic phenomena for some of us and to change it we must become aware of how it works under the surface because it’s not a conscious process for anyone involved. Clinicians are the worst because they’re in a position of power and they deny that this is happening. That of course adds to the injurious nature of the dynamic. …

Perceived madness will unleash unprovoked violence (violation) by cops, authorities etc.

I don’t spend so much time thinking about this stuff anymore, but as a writer I’ve found that there are many people who need to hear this from someone else because they think they’re the only ones such heinous shit happened to. Or worse, they have come to believe they deserved the heinous shit because there is no one in their environment to reflect to them their real beauty and any sort of belief in their inherent well-being (we all have that).

When we are told our experience is too ugly to be heard…

In the wake of the backlash I’ve experienced from having posted: Carrie Fisher’s urn is a giant prozac pill — this is my heart-felt response I wrote:

When people are gravely harmed and they open their mouths to simply share their experience they are told they’re too extreme. …it’s a conundrum…when we are told our experience is too ugly to be heard. We are in essence being told to shut up. The mainstream narrative is dangerous when it comes to psych meds (and many other things)…this needs to be confronted. One way or another. Sometimes it’s scary. This is simply true.

I want to also say that I have great respect for Carrie Fisher who was clearly a wonderful woman who spoke her own mind. I have no bone to pick with her. I am confronting the mainstream narrative and media which will use anything to support itself. Carrie was a victim of this narrative like so many other of the people I’ve loved and lost in this world. …

Trauma, subpersonalities, the lie and constant change (parts)

Healing, more than anything, becomes an exercise in learning to trust oneself. This is especially important when there are people about who want to force us to do things that are counterproductive to healing. Unfortunately the medical and psychological establishments perpetuates many such treatments. My village has been patch-worked together from all over the world. I’m profoundly grateful for the internet given I would not have healed otherwise.