I have gone to practitioners but, Ayurveda, at foundation, is about learning to listen to your body and know how to feed it, move it, rest it and take care of it as needed. That is always our job in the end. I never found a practitioner who could deal with my extreme and multiple issues either. I couldn't even leave my house for 5 years as I was bedridden. I started these practices on my own at home in my bed. I am no longer bedridden. I am no longer nonverbal. I still have tardive dyskinesia and I still love Ayurveda with a profound gratefulness as it helped me be in touch with my body. This is good stuff for anyone in life at anytime. ...
Tardive Dyskinesia is brain damage. It is a medically induced (iatrogenic) INJURY caused by 500 different drugs often used in psychiatry, gastroenterology and Parkinsons. People are rarely told of the risk. It's often referred to as a side effect of the drugs. This is offensive. A side effect is not a crippling life long disease... Continue Reading →
I've posted a couple of times about having TD. It is an awful debilitating, crippling and disfiguring disease caused by iatrogenic injury. I just discovered the National Organization for Tardive Dyskinesia so I thought I would share. There is very little accurate or clear information about this disease. I have avoided doctors mostly as I've not encountered anyone that seems like they would do anything other than harm. Neurologists who treat TD are prone to use psych meds and the MDs I saw mostly shamed and dismissed me as crazy. I did have a psychiatrist who was also a friend diagnose me and it's very clear that I have TD. I go from being physically okay to being able to hardly stand up in the same day. I suffer from acute and chronic pain in my face, head, neck and shoulders. I am often totally unable to function as a result of this drug injury. I've written very little about it because this site was about recovering after coming off psych meds and well, I've got my mental health but I am not well. It's likely I will never be well. My only goal now is to learn how to cope better. As readers of this site know I've exhausted all manner of behavioral and lifestyle healing methods. This is not an easy ride. (click through for more)
...the farther out we go the fewer we meet who can understand, but we're out here...always...those who trust your experience is just as you say it is...
I wrote about anger today when a friend posted elsewhere about how anger is being maligned so that people are marked as characterological defects...she posted something from Teal Swan...a young woman guru who really sticks her neck out... I said: our relationship with anger is gravely and dangerously messed up. It's not really safe to... Continue Reading →
I've come to believe that serious microbiome issues (lyme disease) and tardyve diskinesia are essentially the same thing. Such is the experience in my body. I have lyme disease -- with five documented pathogens involved. I have mostly used Buhner inspired treatments. I also have tardive dyskinesia, a collection of debilitating "symptoms" associated with pharmaceutical... Continue Reading →
Ecstatic movement has been a critical part of my healing. Ecstatic dance practiced with intent is movement meditation. Below is compilation from my favorite “wave” ever. You don’t need to read anything about it…just start moving to the music. downloadable audio file here: allison-watson dj'd this collection If you want to learn more about ecstatic dance... Continue Reading →
More of my latest meanderings: Egalitarian "hetero" relationships don't need to look like God/Goddess (or anima/animus) relationships. They're not distinctively nor necessarily male and female. Both partners may embody both male and female. A man may be more archetypically female . A woman might be more male. Hetero-normative crap is crap. I see women and... Continue Reading →
Trust your exhaustion. Take a rest. A nap. STOP. It's okay. It's good to listen to the body. *** Both silence and stillness can be found in all movement and noise as well... silence and stillness are foundational...we need not stop doing anything nor do anything in particular to find them. *** I've been spending... Continue Reading →