Golden nuggets from the beyond…

The entire world is conventional. One can wear different costumes and the manifestations of dysfunction then vary…a lot. We live in paradox. In any case it seems the only thing left to do is rejoin humanity and ignore all stories and simply wander among my brothers and sisters.

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I’ve always been intense. When I was a kid it was just a feature of who I was and not that big a deal. Thing is now the more I heal it’s becoming bigger and people just don’t really like me all that much. I’m stuck with choosing to be who I am and irritate people or go away.

I imagine this might be temporary as I move through this particular phase of the clearing out of my body. Still it’s not very pleasant and yet I feel in complete integrity and alignment, so it’s kind of strange.

A friend who briefly was sort of a teacher once told me that the biggest shock he had when healed enough to truly be himself, was how many people did not like him. It made me laugh and it’s sadly true. The more authentic we become the more we turn those subject to convention off.  And like I said, the whole world is convention…it’s a case of being in the world but not of it…rather discombobulating really.

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How deep into hell one has gone correlates exactly with how much someone can inhabit love.

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We are an organism like mushroom mycelium.

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Intuition is limited by how much we’ve healed. In pure love we see ourselves in every last human being. most of us want to “other” some percentage of the human family. That happens to be our tribal nature. When we open our hearts out beyond our tribe we are whole.

Having no boundaries at all is the highest state…then in flow we act accordingly. Sometimes no boundary will look boundaried to those who have not become conscious about this particular aspect of being human. No boundary is total acceptance. Behavior has nothing to do with it. No boundary is clarity. It is the capacity to see through the veil.

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Perpetrators are first victims. we dissociate from the perpetrator and that is a very serious issue…why is no one ever discussing their own perpetration? We only point to those committing it when the fact is we are all perpetrators.

We don’t discuss our own perpetration because it’s not safe to do so. Certain kinds of perpetrators are in a bind even if they want help. We are not willing to tend to them because they are serving for our projections so that we might not have to deal with our own perpetration. Healing trauma involves both the forgiveness our ourselves and others. No one gets a free ride. (see: I am responsible. I love you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.)

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We are awake and having different experiences. This is ok. Love guides us in trusting this about everyone we meet.

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disintegrating into the whole
reconstituting into the whole

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People are put on psych meds because of how little will there is societally wide to engage and heal our collective shadow. The most sensitive and vulnerable among us are the most heavily drugged and they often die that way. Please consider this.

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happened upon this non-dual line in the Bible:

For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. – Corinthians 13:10

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Every trigger from “outside” is an invitation into shadow. If we take the opportunity to go within and feel that pain we heal. As a result, next time we can meet someone acting in less skillful ways with love and compassion and no longer be harmed by them.

In systematically embracing the shadow of humanity we neutralize all demons and become motivated by love. Demons are only denied aspects of ourselves. In embrace they all come into alignment. Practice holding open to everything.

Shadow work on Everything Matters

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Hate and love are two sides of the same coin…Passion holding them as one. Oh, yes. Love has no opposite.

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Getting healthy means coming to balance

I had multiple infections that responded to Lyme disease treatment. I never tested positive for Lyme and gave up on doctors after that. Healing (for me) didn’t mean killing off all micro-organisms. It meant bringing balance by moving out excess of the ones making me sick and building up with other more expansive ones.

These little guys have consciousness. They’e part of us and work together with us. Imbalances is what make us sick. Healthy people have the same bugs in different proportions.

Getting healthy means learning to bring it all to balance. I call it internal eco-system management. This goes along with many other aspects of the body for me since my entire autonomic nervous system got blown out. It was an exceedingly complex process after being bedridden and atrophied for some years.

more on topic:

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Understanding

“understanding” is a problem…if one *believes* they understand they’re likely deluded…the mystery can only be understood by allowing that which cannot be understood to prevail in every moment.    #noself

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evil? I understand evil. I’ve worked on the streets among the most vulnerable my entire career. Evil is neglect. That is all evil is. Human neglect of the planet and our fellow sentient beings. We’re all in collusion.

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Yoga spot ~ front porch~ in lieu of the grass because it’s raining

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lots of yoga posts here

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watch the expansion and contraction…watch it daily and watch it seasonally. feel it in the body and know all you need to know. expansion and contraction.  (See more on topic)

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In acceptance of our fundamental aloneness, we find our fundamental connectedness.

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healing has no morals…it’s survival and evolution….we’re talking lizard brain…healing is the integration of all that we fear in our lizard being with all that which we are in what we generally consider divine like. The divine and the lizard are both what we are! ~ heaven and hell is within.

Once we embrace the lizard…the frightened, hyper-aware being that is the root of our consciousness, we are free! Embrace your inner lizard and be free. That lizard just wants to be hugged.

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placebo effect is the body’s innate capacity to heal~ the general attitude of dismissal and disregard is misguided. Placebo is instinct… We know how to heal…follow that knowing and everything done will be just right…pay attention while healing and this capacity gets stronger. (more on placebo)

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The human animal has it’s own life. Awareness cannot control or change the story in the ways we might like. It can watch and provide container. We watch and learn about this unique body. With acceptance, in this way, we learn about the organism that is the human species.

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healing is living ritual

in confidence there is no need for superiority

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healing is living ritual…one must enter another world and listen to that which has been largely forgotten.

(More on Healing here)

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my environment is my therapist…that includes all of nature, the man made world and all creatures great and small. when one pays attention to the context in which one finds oneself in, all that is needed to understand is right here, right now. Be. Do, don’t do. Watch.

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Screenshot 2020-05-17 at 6.16.24 PMmy yoga process is blossoming. I do yoga in any and all environments I find myself in and am learning to do it surreptitiously and not so surreptitiously anywhere I find myself. Bathroom stalls, walls as props, corners and weird stretches in chairs and while standing in line etc

I need to do this if I don’t want to look like a wild child (or crazy adult)…for me to go out into the world I need to do yoga (I need to move, one way or another…sometimes I need to jump around) and integrate it into every moment…that is what i’m learning right now and what my body is able to do…kids who can’t stop moving are labeled and drugged. I’m like that kid now…it’s a detoxification issue for me…when detox pathways don’t run smoothly moving becomes an imperative that cannot be denied unless one wants to become ill.

my body prioritizes movement right now in such a way that it’s all I can do if I want to do anything at all. What does my body need right now to be okay? Food, movement, sleep, water? Or maybe stillness or even stillness in movement? Survival mode: when one surrenders to it all it ushers in gloriousness…

More YOGA on this site

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“The Master has no mind of her own.
She works with the mind of the people
She is good to people who are good
She is also good to people who aren’t good
This is true goodness
She trusts people who are trustworthy
She also trusts people who aren’t trustworthy
This is true trust”

From the:

Tao te ching chapter 49 – translated by Stephen Mitchell (who once guest lectured in one of my religious studies classes at UC Berkeley) we had fun afterwards and hung out on the grass with about 5 other students. Many academics don’t much like this translation. I quite enjoy it. It includes an attempt to be gender neutral by using she and he alternately.

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Life force wants our camaraderie…(some thoughts arising during quarantine)

Self-medicating?  everyone self medicates. A healing diet is a form of self-medication, so is listening to calming music, or going running and doing yoga.  And sure, so is downing a bottle of wine, smoking or doing any other substance for the purpose of easing ones emotional state. Self-medicating is totally normal.  Learning to do it skillfully is the intent of a harm reduction practice. We’re creatures that survive by ingesting substances of all kinds…food and herbs included. Only thing wrong is that we’ve not been allowed be ourselves and learn to listen to our bodies.

Addiction is a response to not getting what one needed during critical developmental stages. Everyone in modern society is addicted to something. Capitalism arose along with addiction. It feeds every addiction imaginable and then some.

Remember: aversion is the opposite side of the same coin…all those folks shaking their fingers at “drug addicts” are guilty of the same. Addiction and aversion. Same/same.

The way out is through harm reduction…slowly coming to awareness of just how full of crap we are…it’s too much to go cold turkey…we are embedded. At the same time we learn how full of crap we are, we learn what amazing miracles we are. There is no joy without despair.

(more  posts on addiction)

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recklessness as perceived by the establishment is life force breaking through. respect yourself and your decisions…learn from the pain incurred…

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Our world has been in crisis for a long time. Some people are only now just waking up to it. If we’ve not been sleeping then we just keep on doing the same thing. Life is change.

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The hardest evolutionary work on the planet is being done by the disenfranchised, the oppressed, the poor, the homeless, the mentally ill, addicts etc. The sensitive are the last. The last shall come first.

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Fitness concept with young sporty womanYoga balls are indispensable to me. That said, I’ve been known to create similar body stretches just about anywhere (over rocks, couches, chairs, etc)…when I don’t have the ball, that is. Basic back-bend with all manner of variations with arms and legs is a favorite. It provides light traction among other things.

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Life force wants our camaraderie…COME PLAY

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Beginners mind

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Ego anonymous: a practice (my version of the 12 steps )

 

I think of my “path” in many different ways. This is just one and I don’t spend a lot of time with it…though it’s a frame that helps … as some sort of foundation along with many others.   I quite enjoyed coming up with these alterations to the original.

Ego Anonymous:

1. We admitted we were powerless — we have no ultimate control over anything and this body will die one day. We are fighting this fact in one way or another. This fight is insane because it’s in contradiction to reality.

2. Came to believe that Nature could restore us to sanity.

3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to life-force as we understand it
4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves

5 Shared our pain/trauma with life-force, ourselves, and with friends.

6. Were entirely ready to have life-force transform all our trauma.

7. Humbly asked that our blind spots be removed.

8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.

9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would hurt them or others.

10. Continued to take personal inventory, and when we were unskillful, promptly admitted it.

11. Sought to improve our conscious contact with life-force through meditation and prayer that we might walk in alignment with all of life by being exactly who and what we are in every moment.

12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of this practice. We carry this message simply by example and feel no need to tell anyone anything about how we got here unless they ask and actually want to know.

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Quarantine bites

thank you to Lee Hodges, Store Manager at Lowe’s Home Improvement — from Linked In. I was so pleased to see someone who isn’t clearly in the world of mental health speaking up for folks.

Lee Hodges said:
I’ve seen a lot of nasty posts in regards to people making “non-essential” trips .. Do you ever think maybe that guy buying a gallon of paint knows he must keep busy because idle hands in the past has caused him to relapse and pick up that case of beer ? So he’s using this time to do home improvements, something that keeps his mind busy while feeling a sense of accomplishment, trying to avoid painful triggers while possibly alone ? Or maybe that lady buying bags of soil and seeds, hasn’t struggled with depression and suicide ? How do you know that planting and watching something beautiful grow during this time of darkness , isn’t essential to her and holding on to what little hope she might still have .. We need to remember that it is impossible to know just by looking at a situation from “our” small lens what someone is truly going through or where their mental health is at . Everyone handles chaos and healing through different means , and I know we are all on edge but please stop being so judgmental of others.
– Lee Hodges

someone else posted about how awful people on the subway in NYC were (there wasn’t space to be six feet apart in the photo) it’s likely they don’t have an option. People do what they need to do to survive. we need to stop assuming we know what is best for every human being. Social isolation and distancing can kill some people just like a virus can. We are not all equally equipped with the same resources.

We all sometimes point the finger outward…and , yes…we are all generally doing the best we can and it’s often hard to remember that, it seems.

HOMELESS people have no home to stay in. (for example). We must not assume our privilege is everyone else’s. There are people suffering horribly due to social distancing. We need to consider everyone’s circumstances if we ever want to be healthy as a whole species. Right now we are a long way off from doing anything other than tyranny by majority rule. Democracy ain’t soft and pretty all the time for everyone, if you’ve not noticed.

Other posts that have arisen in response to the pandemic:

 

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Getting to know herbs (spotlight CBD)

 

I’m sharing an article I found interesting about CBD.  I’m sharing this simply to illustrate how one perhaps gets to know any herb or plant-based medicine.  These are relationships. You get to know the plant and how you interact with it. There are times when it’s appropriate and there are times when it is not and this is true for just about everything.

Those of us with these injuries know something about the trickster in just about any food or substance. We have a lot of sensitivities.  I find that most herbs have a sort of polarity in which they may be just what you need today but not tomorrow. And they really do act differently in the body depending on what is going on. All herbs do this in one way or another. Some are much more noticeable than others.

From: CBD Science: How Cannabinoids Work at the Cellular Level to Keep You Healthy

“Cannabinoids are well known among scientists for their trickster-like ability to exert opposite effects in different situations. In mitochondria, cannabinoid activity is even more complicated. At low-stress conditions, cannabinoids often increase mitochondrial activity and cellular respiration, triggering autophagic cellular repair. Cannabinoids will also buffer high stress conditions and protect cells by decreasing mitochondrial activity. But that’s not all. The dependence on stress is actually trimodular: In very high-stress conditions — such as those often present in cancer cells — endocannabinoids can create a positive feedback loop, increasing stress to the point where the cell undergoes apoptosis.” —

My comments:

I didn’t get on well with CBD for a long time…as with most isolates and extracts. At this point I will only use full spectrum extracts (the whole plant is used).  I quite like CBD on occasion now and find that a small amount of THC (whatever is legal in your state) really helps the CBD work…tiny, trace amounts do not cause one to get “high.” Some people, however, are sensitive to anything coming from a plant with any amount of THC so one must always be careful when first trying anything.

Mostly I’ve come back to CBD with great respect.  Like many herbs,  it has deep intelligence. It will not just get rid of pain if that is not what you need…it’s just as likely to put you squarely into the pain in order to process it and heal. This is actually true of many herbs and something people often have a hard time with this. Real medicine takes time and it often requires us to face our pain. CBD  is very grounding at this point for me. Again, remember, it’s different for everyone and it’s different everyday. Our bodies change in every moment.

Western medicine has brainwashed us to think we should take “medicine” everyday, always. That’s pHARMa propaganda.

If an herb is feeling right, use it. If not, don’t. Listen to your body. Learn to respond to it’s cues in the moment. That is the healing process for me in a nutshell, really.

When we’re healing homeostasis doesn’t exist…we can’t do the same thing every day and expect to continue getting better…healing is a vibrant state of CHANGE.

MORE posts on HERBS

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