I did just about every elimination diet out there (over a period of 15 years). These thoughts come mostly from a few years ago as I started to eat more of everything again…I am still learning to eat well for this moment now. Food, diet and mindfulness all go together in my world. This is... Continue Reading →
When people are incapable of understanding nuance (grey areas, paradox, nonduality, whatever you want to call it) they are generally incapable of communicating on difficult topics. Generally anyone attached dogmatically to any particular belief have trouble opening to conflicting or even complimentary information. When one comes up against dogma in another it seems best to go silent and start listening carefully. Sometimes there is a way to re-engage and other times the best one can do is allow the moment while opening the heart as wide as possible. When one cannot be understood, when communication isn’t possible, argument is not helpful. ...
Here is to being nobody with everybody! Yes a celebration of being a nobody. To grasp our nobodyness and celebrate it seems to be at the essence of successful nonhierarchical living. If we all understand and embraced the nobody nature of our existence things would be different. Granted, it's only something to think about since as we, as western people, are about as far away from embracing this deeply as is possible. We might say our lack of understanding our nobodyness is what is ailing us in the most profound way.
The video shows me doing yoga as needed: Cobra on a park bench and then I did a little cat cow too. I incorporate my yoga into every moment of daily life so that there is no separation as I slowly rehab over and over again.
New Post when I'm in guidance there is no thought whatsoever. I watch and learn. My body is a channel of the divine. This is the nature of the surrendered path I live. the above is true, while I am also in a hell realm most of the time. So it's hard to explain to people. I learn all about humanity, however from here. We really cannot know ourselves without a deep dive into shadow. I, for whatever reason, was called to the fringes of the human experience...all with the afflicted body being mirror for the human condition and that which is happening on the planet right now.
This is how to use the site Many people still ask me for my “protocols.” The message I communicate for healing is that we are all different and our paths are also, therefore, going to be endlessly diverse. I share my experience, not so that it may be copied, but so that the reader can get a sense of process.
...the farther out we go the fewer we meet who can understand, but we're out here...always... those who trust your experience is just as you say it is...
I can’t not be me now, all of me. It’s all out there, no mask, no pretence, no condition shoulds or ways of being other than this. There is only so much space and time available to put myself into a straight jacket of someone else’s making. And so that requires of them the letting go of expectations and projections. It requires of them to relate with me in the now, in the present moment, in the rawness of life, in the truth of life. It requires of them to let go of any ideas of me and be with the reality of me. Anything else and it falls apart, anything else and it’s untruth burns brightly. Anything else and it gets shown for what it is... the conditioning of shoulds. I ask for authentic relating but I give it too, not as a virtue signal, a choice or a practice, but because life gives no other option, even when honestly I'd love an option to turn it off, turn it down!
Soulwork is not a high road. It's a deep fall into an unforgiving darkness that won't let you go until you find the song that sings you home. - McCall Erickson *** Love humbles by creating deep gratitude for a lesson learned and allows us to feel vulnerable and thus allows humility. Humiliation is cruel and tends to build pride in reactivity rather than humility. ...
my body, my brain, injured to the point of death by patriarchal capitalism, is my guide as it heals and demands nothing but justice for all...
by Robert D. Stolorow The DSM5, the most recent version of psychiatry’s diagnostic bible, makes it possible to classify grieving that endures beyond a rather brief span of time as a mental illness. This pathologizing of grief has ancient roots extending back at least as far as the Stoics.
Update 2026: Since this was posted in 2009 we've seen the truth of this evolve. Drugs like abilify and seroquel are routinely used to help just about anyone sleep, for example. Neuroleptics, also categorized as antipsychotics are the new Benzos, really. Benzodiazepines got a bad rap and so they had to be replaced by something. Satire by the gifted psychiatrist and scientist, turned poet: Grace Jackson MD - author of Drug-Induced Dementia: a perfect crime (link included) Neuroleptics for Everyone
While this label has been never been used to describe me I know that if I had been in psych wards today instead of 25 years ago, I would have certainly been labeled with it. It was not as commonly used when I was frequently hospitalized. I did, however at the time, not make doctors happy. I, indeed, as Ruth writes in her post, perpetrate the "bitch pisses off doctor" sin. I pissed off all the staff . I couldn't stand being treated with so little respect when I was hospitalized, so I did not "behave" well. I'm going to write about the label from a slightly different perspective. I've not said much, except in passing, that I was a social worker in mental health. I no longer identify with the role that took front and center stage in my life for so long. I was a social worker dammit, not a psych patient! In any case, in truth, I was a social worker and a psych patient and in practice I really did behave as both, though my employers never knew it. Looking back I now see I may have gotten burnt out for a reason. I identified with my clients. You are always told not to identify with "them".
I want to share this old video: madness, diversity and inclusivity. It's general message is especially important now with all the division we are facing societally. If you're interested in more YouTube talks, please let me know.
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Here's an important thing to understand about psychiatric drugs. Mental health conditions, just about all of them, are forms of dissociation from the body. Psychiatric drugs, across the board, dissociate one further from the body. Thus, they make the issues worse. When people actually do find relief on psych drugs, that's real and some people find in that kind of relief an opportunity to seek other ways of healing. Other people, however, never get off of the drugs and slowly their metabolic processes and capacity to detoxify diminish further. Thus, we get the statistic that people on psych meds die 25 years earlier on average.
This is to let you know the International Peer Respite/Soteria Summit (Summit), with which I am involved, recently arranged for the incomparable Daniel Mackler to edit its over 20 hours of videos into short clips: Included is an list of them all.
I use a paid search engine to make this site competitive with what's out there these days (just for accessibility, mind you... I'm not into marketing anymore) ... There a a bunch of staggered payments for upgrades. This one for search caught me by surprise. I would love some help if you feel so inclined.... Continue Reading →
being accused of offering up "dangerous misinformation." it's more like the interpretation offered about the actual facts makes the person uncomfortable. I forget how nasty and mean people are when they think that psychiatry is the bees knees and they imagine I'm hardcore anti. I'm not. I have witnessed and supported thousands of people who have been gravely harmed, often to the point of death by psychiatry AND I still support the individual doing what they need to do in terms of psych treatment...because we live in hell and in hell you do what you gotta do. I have numerous posts on my site that make this clear. You do not need to be cruel to people you do not understand. Get a grip.
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