I took the site down for a couple of weeks. I need to move on and I intend to do that. Thing is 100s of you have requested access so I’ve put the site back up — I’ve taken my name off the site (mostly — it’s kind of impossible to do completely) and ask that no one contact me for consultations or assistance. I have found that contact from 100s of despairing people every year keeps my PTSD alive in ways that are frankly unhealthy. I can’t help you all individually. It’s impossible and very distressing both. I want to move on. Really move on. So here is the content. Have at it. I’ve retired from this phase of my life. Please don’t contact me.
My “chronically ill” body rewards my gentle persistent attentions with never-ending insights into the nature of being an embodied human. Healing is alchemy and it never ends. The sensitive body holds the entire world’s pain, trauma, joy and madness within it. And yes, the suggestion is that most of us are not embodied. The conditioned self is disembodied. Coming to embodiment can be very painful.
**Deconstructing in order to construct. Kali at work** This has been my healing process – Kali action. — The body had real (physical) structures for emotional/spiritual armor…they had to come down…that has been happening via an incredibly difficult heavy metal detox (and other toxins that are in the biofilm matrix). *** Samsara rule number one: it’s […]
From Wikipedia for those who do not know the term: Hungry ghost is a concept in Chinese Buddhism and Chinese traditional religion representing beings who are driven by intense emotional needs in an animalistic way. (NOTE: when I saw this I thought that hungry ghosts originated in Tibetan Buddhism but figured I was wrong. A friend on twitter just said the same thing, […]
The shadow child, the dissociated, disenfranchised self, is the light. I bow down to her now. My GODDESS my QUEEN within me. Please speak. I am all wisdom I am your light I am the force within you. I AM. You have kept me buried for far too long. It is time to release me. […]
As I learn more and more about being in this sensitive body that feels all aspects of energy in the universe I come to understand and be able to move about the world more easily. It’s still a process that at least on some level seems excruciatingly slow. The psych drug brain injury destroyed all […]
Most “healing”professionals of all stripes and varieties wear professionalism like a suit of armor. This is a subtle form of lying. They hide behind the armor of their profession hoping to seem flawless and authoritative. Removing themselves from their fellow humans… This armoring is done by necessity, really. The professional is not fit to withstand […]