Dissociation, psych drugs and chronic illness

In healing chronic illness with many acute, chronic pains I’ve seen that dissociation is not simply psychological but profoundly physiological…The process of getting chronically ill included layers of ever deepening dissociation from the body creating multiple broad spectrum illnesses…a dissociated body/mind cannot meaningfully take care of itself. Psych drugs allowed for these ever deepening layers of dissociation as they made the body sicker and sicker, the drugs largely numbed it all (though we’re often not aware of it because, generally, we still feel really shitty anyway!)…

Happiness coexists with despair

The wise ageless one within. It’s there…aching to emerge. *** Happiness can coexist with despair. It really can. We need to stop having such narrow view of what happiness is. The clearer we get, in fact, the more this sort of thing occurs. When we are clear we can feel anything on the emotional spectrum […]

Heavy metal, gut bugs, the brain and profound healing

I’m doing heavy metal detox…intense. Rarely mention it because people don’t understand how insane it is. I can feel metal leaving my brain. Metal hangs out in biofilms  with infectious agents…as this comes out so does decades & lifetimes–via ancestral lineage — of emotional crap. Virtually no support during this process, really…not that I’ve found […]

Life as a meditation: my contemplative adventure

‎”Formal” meditation — the kind where you set aside a specific time and sit on a cushion…I don’t do all that often anymore and that has been the case since I’ve been seriously ill. First it became impossible, but then I found another way of meditating deeply. What happened with my illness is that I learned that formal meditation is not always necessary for everyone, though I did start with more formal sitting years ago and it’s likely that it’s a good place to start, in general, if at all possible.

Psychiatric Drugs Cause Harm — #WorldBenzoDay

This is the video I did last year for this day. Help raise awareness and please share it and other information about benzodiazepines today.  Visit: —  World Benzodiazepine Day: Change through Unity  (Facebook page) — Recently I wrote another post about what it was like when the illness incurred by the drugs was at its worst: When medicine and doctors almost kill you…  Because, yeah, I was on death’s door for a long, long time. It can still feel traumatic to really think about that time. I do hope we can help others avoid such a fate. …

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