What passes for health are a variety of degrees of anesthesia

We live in a society that has a hard time with idiosyncrasies and differences; that doesn’t recognize the uniqueness of each individual predicament. This turns the experience of life as a struggle into an anomaly when in reality, I think life is a struggle for everyone. People differ in as much as they successfully or unsuccessfully construct shields that make that struggle unconscious. But no one can really embrace life without seeing how much pain it contains. So what passes for health are a variety of degrees of anesthesia. …

Advertisements

Becoming conscious is risky business

When people are sensitive and they get labeled mentally ill…the force of all of society believing it’s an illness is projected onto us…If we don’t come to understand the actual toxic force of this it will kill us. That is the tragic truth. And it’s no small thing to do that. When all of society projects the belief that ugly, intractable uncontrollable forces are making us sick…well, no surprise…we get sick…To allow that toxic shit to flow through us once we accept the label of mentally ill, is again, no small thing..most of us cannot do it …

Embracing darkness and shadow that we might also be light and joy

Here’s the thing…in as much as we cannot abide the pain in others we are unawake to that pain within us…heal ourselves we heal the whole … people who studiously avoid the “negative” are missing out on their own healing…we don’t need to go look for it, but avoidance is denial. … those who need love most…are the ones we studiously avoid …the “difficult” people who’ve been hurt in ways we can’t abide…sometimes others find me to be that person…most readers of this blog perhaps have felt rejected in this way too at one time or another. 

Dissociation, psych drugs and chronic illness

In healing chronic illness with many acute, chronic pains I’ve seen that dissociation is not simply psychological but profoundly physiological…The process of getting chronically ill included layers of ever deepening dissociation from the body creating multiple broad spectrum illnesses…a dissociated body/mind cannot meaningfully take care of itself. Psych drugs allowed for these ever deepening layers of dissociation as they made the body sicker and sicker, the drugs largely numbed it all (though we’re often not aware of it because, generally, we still feel really shitty anyway!)…