Protracted psychiatric drug withdrawal issues triggered once again. Youtube video
how do we move in a world that wants to diminish us? MICROAGGRESSIONS are BIG sometimes.
Sitting with highly reactive feelings is often a highly somatic experience that most people have no framework for and therefore no means to understand what is happening. It can be a very frightening thing to sit with reactive feelings.
This is a little collection of thoughts I’ve written down in the last month and a half or so. I’m still getting a grip on what happened and these are some of my musings. My best to all who visit here today and always.
I retired the site late last year and didn’t know what the future of my work would be. I had become progressively ill with digestive and auto-immune issues in spite of eating and living really clean and well. I continued to deal with severe iatrogenic injury from the cocktail of psych drugs I came off of many years ago now. Drugs really do cause harm and I was about to discover that all over again.
I took the site down for a couple of weeks. I need to move on and I intend to do that. Thing is 100s of you have requested access so I’ve put the site back up — I need to ask that no one contact me for consultations or assistance. I have found that contact from 100s of despairing people every year keeps my PTSD alive in ways that are frankly unhealthy. I can’t help you all individually.
January 2018 – update: I have discovered there is no moving on really…but there is making new healthier boundaries. this work is in my bones. the alchemy continues.
My “chronically ill” body rewards my gentle persistent attentions with never-ending insights into the nature of being an embodied human. Healing is alchemy and it never ends. The sensitive body holds the entire world’s pain, trauma, joy and madness within it. And yes, the suggestion is that most of us are not embodied. The conditioned self is disembodied. Coming to embodiment can be very painful.