Healing from trauma as well as the waking up process, in general, is often experienced as an unlayering process. Lately I've been revisiting the oldest wounding again. It's been a doozy. It's got correlates in the body (and shows up as chronic illness via the psych drug damage--everything matters and everything is connected!) and so I've not been feeling well either. It's bringing up all the stuff about the system and healers that played into my even earlier wounding.