When medicine and doctors almost kill you…

I was so fucking sick. Sometimes I think about it and just the thought of those times is traumatizing. It’s still often very difficult too which keeps it fresh. I’ve come so far but when I think about what it was like it’s just horrifying. Horrifying, still, because it remains incredibly alienating…And horrifying because I know that so many others are being made ill like I was made ill…yes MADE ill by psychiatric drugs and treatment…and the fact remains that most people don’t want to even know that it’s possible to get so sick. it’s too frightening to face. …

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KALI – the goddess and archetype who’s been my muse and familiar

some tweets from my twitter timeline I’m going to share here now too. I’ve strung them together: In our culture with the level and degree of societal conditioning the only way to heal and be free is to first be totally destroyed. Once we’ve been wiped out completely (all that conditioning wiped away clean) we […]

the mental health professionals who perpetrate against us

I think a lot about why I can’t work therapeutically with people in the mental illness system. I have found that the same traumatic dynamic comes up with some frequency outside that system too with “healers” of all stripes really…alternative doctors, energy workers, therapists of various sorts, you name it…if they are in the healing profession they’ve hurt me and people like me. Some of us are like magnets to people’s ugliness. This is a sort of karmic phenomena for some of us and to change it we must become aware of how it works under the surface because it’s not a conscious process for anyone involved. Clinicians are the worst because they’re in a position of power and they deny that this is happening. That of course adds to the injurious nature of the dynamic. …

Pharmaceuticals suppress symptoms…(and thus lie to us)

Western medicine with it’s penchant for suppression is a real political force. In suppressing the body’s cries we are also denying the psyche. One need only look at US political process and our communities rife with racism, sexism and homophobia to see what this denial has created. Pharmaceuticals suppress symptoms and then keep one in the maintenance mode, creating customers for life and guaranteeing no real healing. …

Oliver Sacks helps me explain hypersensitivity

Humans can discriminate between similar odors and detect many substances, sometimes more than rodents and dogs. — The Myth That Humans Have Poor Smell Is Nonscents – The Atlantic — We can also know which herbs will heal us and when it’s appropriate to take them (a delightful thing I’ve learned as an amateur herbalist as I heal my brain) we are insanely out of touch with our animal selves. We have instinct and intuition like all animals…we can relearn and remember these skills…

Questions, answers and musings on the healing process…

I’m in a intense recovery process from a severe chronic illness with brain injury and auto-immune stuff. I practice a form of surrender to the body which means I’m in constant mindful attendance to it as I heal. The brain injury is marked with severe dysregulation which is slowly becoming regulated. I do that by responding deeply to the body and having no expectation about what it actually needs. It’s a deconditioning process among other things…a lot of what we hear in health circles have nothing to do with us in particular because we are endlessly variant. So learning to attune to what is resonant and needed for this body is the healing process for me. …