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Is there choice involved in “letting go?”

I have found I can’t *choose* to “let go.” With developing awareness through mindfulness, I have however, seen how attachment is a problem and things have radically shifted with that awareness. It’s never been about choice for me — as attractive and seductive as that idea might be, I’ve found that I have no choice at all. With awareness, and in surrender, however, I am able to act and feel with more and more equanimity.

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the musings of a mad woman

I am a mad woman — it’s a phenomenal and lovely journey. Madness is the real sanity on a planet full of people who don’t remember who and what we are. …

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Developing unconditional friendship with yourself

I woke up in the middle of the night in meditation and contemplation, a bit horrified and humbled and also amazed with a sense of wondrousness at what I’ve been through in the last few days. About what I’ve discovered about myself and humanity in general, as my healing continues to unfold. I am wondrously human! Especially in my incapacity to have any control whatsoever over pretty much anything. It’s often both humbling and frightening. …

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Surrender more. Seek less.

I’ve personally found that trying to change myself actually gets in the way of healing. I am (mostly) okay with acknowledging I am not in control. Sometimes life hands you a crisis where the only way out is coming to accept that reality. For me, what happened to me on psychiatric drugs was one of those situations. In that realization too, there is grace. With grace comes deep healing. …

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no one source of truth or light (multiple musings)

I get information and data about the living whole in every moment of my mindful existence. Sometimes I utilize systems, ideologies, religions, metaphor and/or myth, poetry, art of all kinds and science too. All manner of creativity and human productivity are expressions of the collective whole and thus a source of information and greater connection. […]