Category: Lamictal

when things fall apart…

gavel with broken glass for when things fall apart

Update 2026: This post was written about three years into the six year withdrawal process. I was seeing a doctor who claimed to understand withdrawal who really did not know what she was doing. It was one of many forays into trusting doctors who would ultimately harm me. I finally learned, many years later and in fits and starts, that I wasn't going to be helped in an direct sort of way by any sort of health professional. The few good folks I met knew that they could only support me and held the mystery of the injuries with me. Anyone who claimed to know what to do proved dangerous.

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Kissing big pharma’s ass

Had to refill my Lamictal today. Right now I'm taking three 25 mg tablets and three 5 mg tablets to total 90 mg.  I was out of both of them. (That's down from a high of 400 mg!) When I got to the pharmacy I discovered I'd reached the much dreaded "donut hole." Once you... Continue Reading →

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Three out of four days ain’t bad

Yes...I had three good days. Energetic and healthy days where I did normal things and didn't feel nauseas or dizzy or unable to walk. In fact two of those days I went on half hour walks. Last night I only slept 5 and a 1/2 hours. I'm assuming that means today will be another bad... Continue Reading →

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I had a “window” yesterday

I felt great yesterday. Out of the blue, after having amongst the worst day yet after a string of awful days. The day before I literally could not stay seated without feeling very dizzy and nauseas. I had to lay down. I could not walk without being hunched over and I had to ask my... Continue Reading →

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Coming off meds: Part 1,234,031

Unfortunately an adverse effect of Lamictal that I thought was gone forever after I got below 150 mg in my withdrawal has returned. The horrible nausea is back. I don't get it. It's the same nausea, but it left me for about 2 months. I seem to have gotten sensitive once again to the remaining... Continue Reading →

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Can this morph into transformative suffering?

I rot. I cannot relax in my new place. I do not feel at home. But there is no other place that would feel completely like home now either. I have been rudderless and sick since I got back here. That was on February 2nd. I am in more (emotional? spiritual? withdrawal?) pain than I... Continue Reading →

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The next step in my withdrawal process

In California I got down to 100 mg of Lamictal from an all time high of 400 mg. I've tapered it in two different stages first with 200 mg starting in March through May of last year then 100 mg this January. After the first 200 mg I was left so fatigued I took a... Continue Reading →

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Suicidality now associated with antiepileptic drugs too

It's not just antidepressants anymore. And benzos are well known to cause depression too. Anti-seizure meds are commonly used as "mood stabilizers" in bipolar disorder. The FDA issued an alert today. Update: Furious Seasons now has good commentary on this issue.

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The pressure to publish

The blog is getting more and more popular. This makes me feel more responsibility to post something at least every couple of days. Then I worry about quality... This will be a simple update sans to much creative impulse. I am suffering again from that debilitating fatigue that the Lamictal withdrawal caused the first time... Continue Reading →

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Another large taper and I slept like a rock

I'm down to 100 mg of Lamictal. I feel like shit, but not because of the taper. I have my period and I have yet to figure out how to get through my period without taking 800 mg of Ibuprofen every 6 hours as well as the maximum dose of Tylenol 4 hours after taking... Continue Reading →

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