Body and brain are incredibly weird and fringe – astonishingly beautiful and horrifying too

As I heal my brain/body I lose the capacity to dissociate … it’s excruciatingly painful. Both physically and emotionally. Dissociation whether it’s what gets labeled “psychotic” or more ordinary is an important coping mechanism for many…. It’s often demonized or pathologized, but in point of fact, everyone dissociates to some extent. As I lose this capacity I have to mourn it. I mean really mourn it because it was my friend and helper for so long…AND because the process, physically, hurts like a motherfucker (it’s got real physiological correlates and is deeply embedded in the body). This process is all tied up in my healing the brain injury…life is an incredible mystery. My body and brain are incredibly weird and fringe — both astonishingly beautiful and horrifying too. …

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Email to yet another misguided professional

Some of you will remember I have a series of emails I’ve sent to perpetrating professionals of various sorts. The collection is called Letters to my Shrink but now includes a couple of medical doctors and various sorts of therapists etc. The below letter is to a craniosacral therapist who also has a doctorate in naturopathy that I just recently went to specifically for craniosacral therapy as it’s a modality I’ve had very good experiences with. One of my closest friends that I’ve been friends with for decades is a craniosacral therapist and she learned on me back when she was studying. From that point on it’s always been a modality of deep healing for me…

short and sweet: 6 brutal truths

Once we’re adults we cannot expect another adult to fix the infantile parts of ourselves that were never appropriately nurtured by our parents. Healing is about becoming conscious of those parts and then learning to reparent those parts for ourselves. No one else will ever know what all the little hurt children within us need. […]

Healing from trauma is an unlayering process

Healing from trauma as well as the waking up process, in general, is often experienced as an unlayering process. Lately I’ve been revisiting the oldest wounding again. It’s been a doozy. It’s got correlates in the body (and shows up as chronic illness via the psych drug damage–everything matters and everything is connected!) and so I’ve not been feeling well either. It’s bringing up all the stuff about the system and healers that played into my even earlier wounding.

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some thoughts from around the internet in the last few days: In response to this article I saw tweeted: Psychiatric drugs killing more users than heroin, cocaine, say health experts I wrote these words:  Zyprexa alone killed far more than Vioxx ever did in same time it was on the market (Vioxx was taken off […]

Let us not be control freaks. Our experience is not anyone else’s.

If and when folks want info based on my experience and study, I will happily share, otherwise how they choose to manage their bodies is their business, not mine. I make this a very conscious practice to never impose what I think on another. I may not be perfect at it but I sure as hell won’t be found screaming at someone about a supplement they should or should not take. … we have no right to tell others how to take care of themselves. – trying to control others is coercive and violent. People have a right to have a different opinion than we do about drugs (or supplements or food or whatever.)

When medicine and doctors almost kill you…

I was so fucking sick. Sometimes I think about it and just the thought of those times is traumatizing. It’s still often very difficult too which keeps it fresh. I’ve come so far but when I think about what it was like it’s just horrifying. Horrifying, still, because it remains incredibly alienating…And horrifying because I know that so many others are being made ill like I was made ill…yes MADE ill by psychiatric drugs and treatment…and the fact remains that most people don’t want to even know that it’s possible to get so sick. it’s too frightening to face. …