The last time I did an anniversary post was 8 years ago. It's my birthday too. I was born on this day. So it's been my anniversary and my birthday for 16 years. I'm drug injured and seriously so. I've never regretted coming off psych drugs.
I am healing the tardive dyskinesia, which for me, as a result of sustained, long-term mindful attention is clearly an infestation of muliple micro-organisms acting in concert via a highly complex biofilm. ... To call this monster within me a biofilm is highly problematic since most people don’t know what biofilm is and those who do imagine that anything referred to as a film must not be particularly significant. Instead, in truth, it is “biofilm” of some sort that is at the root of all illness. In my experience the TD colonizes every cell in the body, however and is far more complex than what anyone seems to understand. In tardive dyskinesia, these systems of micro-organism architecture that are being organized becomes a snaking, moving, morphing entity that slowly takes over the entire body. It defies the laws of physics as we currently understand them.
Chronic Lyme disease is not a homogeneous entity. The diagnosis is a distraction really and it doesn’t help a lot of people. Lyme is only given when one particular bacteria is present. The fact is, in long term chronic Lyme there are always multiple infections and generally parasites too in massive biofilm structures that take over the body. Of note: The Dyskinesia in Tardive Dyskinesia a diagnosis given to those with a common psych drug injury) is indistinguishable from some Dyskinesias that are part of some cases of "Lyme " disease. I've come to believe they are the same thing. The psych drug damage associated with TD creates opportunity for the systemic infections to ravage the lymph and nervous systems.
This is my experience after what, at this point, amounts to thousands of hours of mindful presence with the chaos in my body. ~~ Chronic illness, pharmaceutical injury ~~ One learns when one focuses attention. One learns a whole lot. That is meditation. Focused attention. So, my experience of chronic illness: Chronic illness is the body saying no to the toxic societal structures that we have internalized…healing from chronic illness is healing the whole human shebang. ~~ To be clear healing does not mean curing. There is no cure to this being human. ~~ ....
PubMed: Microbes and Mental Illness. Microbes and Mental Illness. I've been writing a lot about my experience with Lyme disease and Tardive Dyskinesia. It's become clear that the TD is an infection gone wild. The psych drug injury allows the Lyme disease infection into the brain and damaging the blood brain barrier) ... in any case... TD is infection.
tardive dyskinesia/lyme face: my best looks over the last four years ~~ These selfies show how I’ve looked for most of the last four years. The condition is severe for about 6 months of the year and then fluctuates for the rest of the year.
A new study reveals there is indeed an association with bartonella infection and that which gets labeled psychosis. There is a long list of other supporting science at the end of the article on Mad in America as well. I've been connecting the dots for a long time. Tardive dyskinesia is also associated with bartonella in that dyskinesias are symptomatic of bartonella.
Joey Marino died recently. I have tardive dyskinesia too. People do not understand how serious it is. Life is nightmarish and we plug along doing the best we can. No one wants to know ugly so we try to dwell on other things when we are with people....because everyone disappears around serious illness. Especially when it's not legitimized in ways like cancer or some other diseases are.
This page houses a collection of articles about tardive dyskinesia. The link can always be found in the menus at the top of the site. Most of the below articles are also about Lyme disease and multiple systemic chronic infections as well. I learned to understand TD in light of treating the Lyme disease and... Continue Reading →
And now on youtube too. A conversation with Will and Monica, Lyme and dyskinesia:
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