Trauma, injury, illness and waking up

It’s strange how it works, or maybe it’s not, but trauma, injury and illness can truly be passageways to waking up and it’s not generally appreciated at all in western medicine which seeks to suppress everything and thus stop that process. Tragic really.   Illness/trauma etc as initiation and/or passageway to waking up is also […]

What does it mean to heal?

Healing to me does not mean returning to what one was before something went wrong. Wholeness does not necessarily mean normal. And even the word recovery is problematic because, frankly, I don’t want what I had before. Who wants to go backwards anyway?

Body, instinct, placebo and a little Goddess Kali

**Deconstructing in order to construct. Kali at work** This has been my healing process – Kali action.  — The body had real (physical) structures for emotional/spiritual armor…they had to come down…that has been happening via an incredibly difficult heavy metal detox (and other toxins that are in the biofilm matrix). ***   Samsara rule number one: it’s […]

Hungry ghosts

From Wikipedia for those who do not know the term: Hungry ghost is a concept in Chinese Buddhism and Chinese traditional religion representing beings who are driven by intense emotional needs in an animalistic way. (NOTE: when I saw this I thought that hungry ghosts originated in Tibetan Buddhism but figured I was wrong. A friend on twitter just said the same thing, […]

The shadow child grows up.

The shadow child, the dissociated, disenfranchised self, is the light. I bow down to her now. My GODDESS my QUEEN within me. Please speak. I am all wisdom I am your light I am the force within you. I AM. You have kept me buried for far too long. It is time to release me. […]

“PTSD” is not a disorder…it’s seeing beyond the veil and being horrified by what we see

When the horror of what the human condition really is becomes obvious (a brutally brainwashed majority that brutally harms one another) … coming into balance with that darkness that is in every one of us takes some time and we also become DANGEROUS to the status quo, so while we are learning to integrate and contain this knowledge we become additionally vulnerable and at risk for harm. …

Love: At the Intersection of Anti-Racism and Anti-Stigma: By Chris Cole

Some people get confused about why this mental health advocate is concerned with anti-racism, when there’s so much work to be done for anti-stigma. I don’t know for sure, but my general pulse is that people think of my story as a hopeful one of recovery with severe mental illness. There’s been serious substance use, body dysmorphia, alcohol poisoning, car crashes, psychosis, mania, depression, narcissistic injury, unrequited love; the list goes on and on. When I tell my story, I try to make a point to mention all the opportunity and good fortune I have been privy to in my life and in this body. Up until recently though, I had been content to let privilege be a background item—important but not critical. …