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Psych drugs and brain damage

It’s clear to me that many of us not only heal but transform into something healthier and more whole than we ever were before psych drugs. Forget recovery…there can be much more, much better than whatever we were before psychiatry. *** There is an unfortunate belief in some parts of critical psych communities that says that the brain injury that many of us sustain as a result of psychiatric drug use and withdrawal is permanent and irreversible. That we cannot heal from it. … It’s not true.

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When we are told our experience is too ugly to be heard…

In the wake of the backlash I’ve experienced from having posted: Carrie Fisher’s urn is a giant prozac pill — this is my heart-felt response I wrote:

When people are gravely harmed and they open their mouths to simply share their experience they are told they’re too extreme. …it’s a conundrum…when we are told our experience is too ugly to be heard. We are in essence being told to shut up. The mainstream narrative is dangerous when it comes to psych meds (and many other things)…this needs to be confronted. One way or another. Sometimes it’s scary. This is simply true.

I want to also say that I have great respect for Carrie Fisher who was clearly a wonderful woman who spoke her own mind. I have no bone to pick with her. I am confronting the mainstream narrative and media which will use anything to support itself. Carrie was a victim of this narrative like so many other of the people I’ve loved and lost in this world. …

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The biggest problem in mental health treatment

The biggest problem in mental health treatment is the idea that anybody need be treated at all. What people really need is a safe space to be who and what they are. Once people are in a safe place they simply need to be supported in trusting their own process. …

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It’s an all-or-nothing game this

The immediate now taking my breath away — so precious, so ordinary. Natural vigilance: perfect attunement with everything right now. What was I so afraid of? I took a very dangerous route to freedom because I had to. Not everyone makes it. It’s an all-or-nothing game this. …

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Empaths, empathy, healing and relationships

I talk about self-protection as legitimate because it absolutely is. What I’m trying to underscore is that when we self-protect we also understand the situation of the other — that nobody is toxic but there are only forms of woundedness that interplay with our particular karmic inheritance. We are sometimes the one that harms (even if only unintentionally) and other times we are the ones that are harmed but it’s all an interplay of woundedness and when we start to understand this we can move through more gently and with love and forgiveness even for those who have perhaps harmed us. …

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Healing a brain injury can hurt very badly. Delusion and dissociation. Herbs, herbs, herbs.

Layers of delusion and dissociation have been directly correlated with bad bacteria and other issues with biofilm matrixes in the body. As I have cleansed (detoxed) I’ve healed long-standing autoimmune disease as well as brain injury imparted from psych drugs. “Mental health issues” associated with trauma also cleared up as the layers of dissociation disappeared with the biofilm matrixes. Word “disappeared” while true, belies the real work involved in letting go. This has both an emotional/spiritual process and a physical one. Both have been critically important processes in the healing process. We are truly one. There is no separation between the physical and the emotional. No separation between body and mind. And everything matters because everything is interconnected. …

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Trauma, subpersonalities, the lie and constant change. Musings for the years end.

Healing, more than anything, becomes an exercise in learning to trust oneself. This is especially important when there are people about who want to force us to do things that are counterproductive to healing. Unfortunately the medical and psychological establishments perpetuates many such treatments. My village has been patch-worked together from all over the world. I’m profoundly grateful for the internet given I would not have healed otherwise.