Battle of the disabilities: I hardly ever get out of the house. I have tics and strange movements and I often have a raging swollen face and mouth due to the infection and tardive dyskinesia that causes the tics and movements and general disability. I look bad, I move funny and I make weird noises. Very occasionally it's all quiet enough that I venture out among the cruel humans, those members of our species, that make people whom they perceive as odd feel really bad for existing.
** genetic geniuses everyone of us**
The body electric… genetic geniuses every one of us …we need only pay attention…“There is a wealth of information built into us … tucked away in the genetic material in every one of our cells … without some means of access, there is no way even to begin to guess at the extent and quality of what is there.” – Alexander Shulgin “If the door of perception were cleansed every thing would appear to a man as it is, infinite.” – William Blake
Joey Marino, actor dies: Tardive Dyskinesia
Joey Marino died recently. I have tardive dyskinesia too. People do not understand how serious it is. Life is nightmarish and we plug along doing the best we can. No one wants to know ugly so we try to dwell on other things when we are with people....because everyone disappears around serious illness. Especially when it's not legitimized in ways like cancer or some other diseases are.
About the times I’ve almost died
The below video about the times I've almost died was recorded four years ago today. This sort of thing is still happening though I get better and better at moving the crud of detox (micro-organisms, metals and nanoparticals from pharma) out of my brain. I've learned a lot more about what is actually happening in the last year. The tardive dyskinesia and systemic microbiome issues are becoming clear to me.
Somatic living is life itself speaking to us
Somatic living is life itself speaking to us Dissociation is more frequently an issue then recognized. Projection (something pretty much everyone does) is a form of dissociation. Disembodiment is the norm. People avoid embodiment because the process can be physically painful… sometimes so acute it’s permanently avoided
Dina Tyler: Psych survivor at Psychiatric Grand Rounds, SF
I remember the first time I watched Dina Tyler on stage in 2014 on a youtube video and fell in love! Here she presents her psych survivor story and the story of so many of us with open vulnerability in front of a room filled with psychiatrists. I am in awe.
Success
Success. Thank you to all who donated towards Everything Matters: Beyond Meds upgrade. The minimum goal has been reached and the upgrade has begun. I'm happy to say the readers are the key to this site's success. The upgrade has begun. Donations are always open as this has always been a voluntary effort and expenses... Continue Reading →
Continuous healing
~ Continuous healing ~ someone said: "I hope healing finds you." response: Healing is here. It's a misconception that healing is ever over.
Let the light of your sensitivity shine
Madness remains an important concept in the literature of those who been psychiatrized. People who study Jung have a very difficult time with the Red Book. They often react to the fact that Jung, within his own psyche, allowed and embraced what is often labeled psychotic in those less resourced.
How to use the site
This is how to use the site Many people still ask me for my “protocols.” The message I communicate for healing is that we are all different and our paths are also, therefore, going to be endlessly diverse. I share my experience, not so that it may be copied, but so that the reader can get a sense of process.

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