This ain’t no psych ward, nor is it a traditional detox but I still feel like shit

Okay. I've arrived. I actually came in yesterday as the trip here--two days in the car, was rough. I feel a bit like I'm in the twilight zone. In some good ways, and some not so good. The first thing I did before entering the center was go see a doc. She was the most... Continue Reading →

Something strange from the psychiatric drug withdrawal chronicles

I made my last taper of Klonopin toward the end of March. I don't remember the exact day but I know it was approximately 10 days before my friend was due to visit because I was thinking I didn't want to be in the throws of intense withdrawals when she came and I've routinely been... Continue Reading →

Brief benzodiazepine withdrawal update

As most of you know I've withdrawn from 50 mg Seroquel, 400 mg Lamictal, 84 mg Concerta, 11 mg Risperdal and 200 mg of Zoloft in the last 5 years. I'm down to getting rid of the Klonopin that I was on up to 6 mg a day, but only addicted to 3 mg. (only,... Continue Reading →

Getting better?!! The ongoing Klonopin-Valium crossover.

Alas, I can say I've improved. What does improvement mean when I still can't stand for more than ten minutes, I cannot drive, I am so weak that phone conversations or company wears me out within 1/2 an hour and that's when I'm doing well? What does improvement mean when I wake up nauseous and... Continue Reading →

Half-way point

As most of you know I'm doing a Klonopin/Valium crossover. I got to the half-way point last night. I started with 2 mg of Klonopin and the goal is to switch to the equivalent dose of Valium which is 40 mg in order to then withdraw from Valium which has a much smoother withdrawal process... Continue Reading →

Brief update—in search of homecare

Things continue to be rough with the Valium crossover. I stopped until I stabilized a few days ago and then cut by only .125 mg of Klonopin and added 2.5 mg of the corresponding equivalency of Valium. I've been pretty out of it again and I cut the dose of the exchange in half and... Continue Reading →

Possible break

In November and December I started a trend that feels like it's come to an end. I started posting several times a day even as I began to get sicker and sicker. I think it was a way to feel in control. In any case I had lots of stored up posts. And now they... Continue Reading →

The Valium crossover–personal update

So, yeah, the Valium is kicking my ass. I thought I was sick before...shit. Well, really this is just a different kind of sick. Another episode in the iatrogenic illness department. I've been switching out .25 mg of Klonopin for 5 mg of Valium every two days. I think I have to stop for a... Continue Reading →

The Klonopin-Valium Crossover explained

Note: not everyone finds crossing-over helpful. For those who determine it's a good idea here is some information.  More info on benzo use and benzo withdrawal here: Benzo Info Valium (Diazepam) vs. Klonopin (Clonazepam) in Benzodiazepine Withdrawal by Dr. Reg Peart Victims of Tranquilizers About 20 different drugs, including diazepam, clonazepam, barbiturates and other non-benzodiazepine drugs have... Continue Reading →

In spite of my arms and hands feeling like wet noodles….

Hey all, had to lay down and be a vegetable a good part of today again. I have no idea what it is that comes over me but it's pain and weakness and nausea and just an onslaught of shittiness. My arms still feel like wet noodles and they hurt, but I'm typing because it's... Continue Reading →

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