So, yeah, the Valium is kicking my ass. I thought I was sick before…shit. Well, really this is just a different kind of sick. Another episode in the iatrogenic illness department.
I’ve been switching out .25 mg of Klonopin for 5 mg of Valium every two days. I think I have to stop for a bit. And I’m only at 10 mg of Valium. Got 30 mg more to go. Even though the equivalent to avoid withdrawal for Klonopin is 20 mg of Valium for every 1 mg of Klonopin, Valium has a much huger drowsy factor. And drowsy for me is a major understatement. I already was hardly functioning and exhausted beyond comprehension, now, today, for several hours I was completely inert. Could. Not. Move. Felt like my whole body was made of brick. Weird and awful. No appetite. Pain up and down my spine.
Talked to a girlfriend who did this with 3 mg of K—-I’m only doing 2 mg and she said it took about a month and she got used to the extra drowsiness. A month. What’s a month in this long damn journey at this point? I suppose not much, but it still sounds friggin awful.
And oh, above girlfriend is happy and healthy now and came off numerous drugs as well.
Anyway. I have some posts stored up. So things will continue to appear, but writing continues to be difficult.
I have a story to tell but it will have to wait until I have a wee bit more energy.
And, oh, I cheated big time today and had some green tea and still feel like shit, so if you’ve been following my blog at all you know that any caffeine at all usually has me go through the roof with weirdo energy and then I crash…not so today, but I’m able to eek out this little post. Let’s hope there is also no crash involved since it certainly didn’t make me feel energetic.
It’s likely by midnight I will have energy again. Late evening I sometimes come alive again. I take all my meds at night so it’s nice when it’s mostly out of my system. Then I have to start the ugly cycle all over again.
For much more info on benzos in general including Valium and Klonopin go the the benzo info page.