As most of you know I’ve withdrawn from 50 mg Seroquel, 400 mg Lamictal, 84 mg Concerta, 11 mg Risperdal and 200 mg of Zoloft in the last 5 years.
I’m down to getting rid of the Klonopin that I was on up to 6 mg a day, but only addicted to 3 mg. (only, ha!) 3 mg of Klonopin is equivalent to 60 mg of Valium. Some people take 2 mg of Valium and it kicks their butt–just so you get how powerful Klonopin is.
In any case I cut down to 2 mg of Klonopin a while back and then got horrendously stuck. After much panic and fear and RESEARCH (thank god for our brains and the ability to educate ourselves) I decided to do a crossover from Klonopin to the equivalent dose of Valium which has proven to be really, really awful as well, but not as bad as continuing to taper the Klonopin alone and the idea with the crossover is that it’s easier to come off of Valium because of the very very long half-life and people, in general, if the crossover is done really slowly and carefully do get accustomed to the icky aspects of Valium, which I can assure you there are many.
Some people, do, however, curse the day they tried a crossover. It doesn’t work for everyone, though, even as I suffer I do believe it’s working for me.
I have not been able to do crossovers more than every 10 – 20 days because it’s horribly hard on my body. This last time it took me about 3 weeks to even be able to stand long enough to leave my house for 1/2 an hour but in the last three days I’ve gone out into the wonder of SPRING twice! I do eventually start recovering between crossovers! And this gives me great hope for the future.
The other day I was talking to one of my close friends who is a survivor and who also runs a detox center to get off these drugs. I’ve visited the place. It’s one of a kind place that gets great results and my friend is great. He also acknowledges that my circumstance stumps him. Nonetheless we chat on the phone often.
The other day he made a suggestion that had crossed my mind already so it was ripe to jump on it. I have made it slightly past the half-way point in the crossover. So I was telling this to my friend the other day and saying how awful it’s been, how debilitated and crippled I’ve been. He told me that at his center in situations like mine where high doses of Valium are concerned he just does half the crossover then resumes the taper with the Klonopin (or other original benzo). And so I jumped at the chance of resuming my taper as doing the crossover feels so stagnant. The thought of a few more months to just get to an equivalent dose of Valium before I could again withdraw has been making me feel stuck.
I want this poison out of my body and now. My body needs it out to really start healing as far as I can tell.
I’ve made great strides in healing emotionally and spiritually but my poor body if suffering so. And so last night I TAPERED again!! YAY!! I was at .875 Klonopin and 22 mg of Valium. For simplicities sake we cut 1/2 mg of Valium about a week ago because I have 10 mg pills and 2 mg pills. So I did do a tiny withdrawal a few days ago.
And last night I did another 1/8 mg of Klonopin down so I’m down to .75 mg of Klonopin and 22 mg Valium. Progress!!
Here’s a good post that covers a lot of issues on benzos. And there are a whole bunch of links to more info on benzos at the bottom of the page that is linked to.