And yet these are some of the most despairing times I've had as well. I've gotten off 5 drugs. I'm down to 5 mg of Lamictal (from 400mg) and I've got the 3 mg of Klonopin to go. I should be off the Lamictal in a few days. Every night when I take the Klonopin... Continue Reading →
Random anger, random ramblings and incompleted thoughts
When I was at my acupuncturists the other day I basically collapsed on the table after pounding on her office door when I couldn't tolerate sitting in the office. I REALLY needed to lay down. I can sit in recliner type chairs but an upright chair I can last in only so long and I... Continue Reading →
Short and sweet update
I'm off all the "emergency meds." It took 12 days---pretty damn awesome if you ask me! Strangely enough, or perhaps not, I slept totally shitty after the first couple of "knock-out" nights until I was completely off the Risperdal on Sunday night. Sunday night was the first restful deep sleep I had. Clearly Risperdal, while... Continue Reading →
Impromptu post: the latest on the withdrawal
I don't know if I'll post this as I have no idea what I'm going to write---only that I feel a strange duty to my blog and want to say something---but what to say at this most strange time of my life---at this most strange time during my withdrawal?? I have been in living hell... Continue Reading →
Sure enough, it was toxicity
I'm well! I cut down 1/2 mg of Klonopin and stopped feeling sick as a dog. That simple. My doc thought it was toxicity but I was afraid it was withdrawal sickness instead which meant we waited longer than necessary to make the next taper. So I was sick and bedridden for four days for... Continue Reading →
Klonopin withdrawal (FYI)
I'm about to begin my Klonopin taper---or more precisely my clonazepam taper since I'm on a generic. Amazing, huh? Once I start this taper it's really the beginning of the end of my withdrawal. I've tapered off 5 meds have Lamictal to finish off and Klonopin is the only one I've not even begun yet,... Continue Reading →
New Blog, amazing story
This young woman has a classic story of being unnecessarily drugged up, but she did escape!! The whole post telling her story is intense and painful and also beautiful and well worth reading. The part that had particular significance for me since I have yet to withdraw from Klonopin and I'm finding the same liberation... Continue Reading →
“Symptoms” and acceptance
The symptoms I am having as a result of withdrawal are first and foremost physical. I've been rendered physically disabled. This is a result of my particular body and history on meds. Not everyone who deals with withdrawal will get physically sick like me. The psychological symptoms or psychiatric symptoms I deal with are no... Continue Reading →
The current psychiatric drug withdrawal episode
It's too soon to tell but I'm doing amazingly well feeling incredibly shitty. I've stepped up the withdrawal. After much deliberation and talking to so many people who have done this withdrawal thing successfully in a myriad of ways, I decided I'm prolonging the agony and it's time to move along at a faster clip.... Continue Reading →