I’m off all the “emergency meds.” It took 12 days—pretty damn awesome if you ask me! Strangely enough, or perhaps not, I slept totally shitty after the first couple of “knock-out” nights until I was completely off the Risperdal on Sunday night. Sunday night was the first restful deep sleep I had. Clearly Risperdal, while having some “knock out” properties also paradoxically fucks with my sleep. I was waking in panic and terror the whole time until it was completely out of my system. The Klonopin usage was completely unremarkable. It did it’s job and fell away quite nicely and easily.
I remain on 3 mg of Klonopin and 25 mg of Lamictal. The crisis might as well have never happened in some respects and I’m happily on much less Lamictal than before the crisis, I was on a whopping 60 mg when the rapid withdrawal process began. I didn’t completely reinstate that. Just the Klonopin and I’m doing fine thanks to some brilliant supplementation that allowed me to drop more Lamictal then ever before. Lamictal withdrawal has been one hell of a doozy in the past, leaving me bedridden for months at a time. So if nothing else this adventure did leave me in a better place towards complete withdrawal of the Lamictal.
Once again the starting point for my psychiatric drug withdrawal 4 years ago was 72 mg of Concerta, 200 mg Zoloft, 50 mg of Seroquel, 11 mg Risperdal, 400 mg of Lamictal and 3 mg of Klonopin.
I’ve been on a total of 37 psychiatric drugs at one point or another over a 23 year period. Most of the cocktail I was on when I started the withdrawal I had been on for years—save the Concerta which was my last attempt to fix the mess the drugs made of me with yet another drug. Concerta is a stimulant and I was trying to wake up! I was only on it for a couple of months and was misled by my doc to believe there was no such thing as withdrawal symptoms from it. That was my first experience that led me to take the researching of withdrawal into my own hands. I was madly suicidal for about 3 days when I cold-turkeyed off the Concerta. Something I’ve learned since then is extremely common for any stimulant.
So the result of that first withdrawal gone bad led me to discover that all psych meds have potentially nasty withdrawals and I’ve been unlucky enough to have had a rough time with most of the meds I’ve been on. I did manage to get off SSRI’s and SNRI’s more than once very easily. I don’t have as hard a time as some do with antidepressants. I also took it very slowly.
Also the Seroquel went real easy too considering I was on 11 mg of Risperdal I just didn’t really feel it much. The rest of the journey though has been pretty rocky but it’s clear that I’ve always been moving in the right direction with lots of indicators that my mind will be clearer and I won’t be so irritable once I’m off the drugs.
I temporarily got seduced into believing it would all be over much more quickly than it’s going to be, but I feel good again and I’m out and about doing stuff, albeit with lots of breaks and rests.
I can hold out for the long haul now. I can still taste success in my mouth. Granted I don’t always feel chirpy. No, not at all as my previous post indicates.
I’m taking a break from drug withdrawal now. I’ll just have to see how long. Could be several days or a few weeks. We’ll see.