This young woman has a classic story of being unnecessarily drugged up, but she did escape!! The whole post telling her story is intense and painful and also beautiful and well worth reading. The part that had particular significance for me since I have yet to withdraw from Klonopin and I’m finding the same liberation in feelings and sexual functioning and creativity as I come off of everything else is this:
Over the course of a year I weaned off all of my medications with the exception of Klonopin, which I upped the dose of to counteract the side effects of coming off of so many drugs. My mental clarity improved. My sex drive returned. I rested well at night. I could cry, I could smile, I could love. I started making art and music again, and my writing started to make more sense. By 2004, I was completely off of all psychiatric drugs except for the one that made me high.
That process was perhaps the most difficult… I spent years faking mental illness I didn’t have in order to fill my Klonopin prescription. I would basically walk into any clinic, tell them I lost my prescription for “Wellbutrin with a Klonopin back” and be handed whatever I asked for. After Hurricane Katrina, New Orleans proved to be a difficult place to continue keeping up my scam. I started to wean off of Klonopin, and began the most horrifying detox of my life. I had a heroin stint previous to this, and it was a piece of cake to kick heroin compared to getting off of Klonopin. Heroin withdrawal took about a month – Klonopin took close to 8 months to leave my system completely.
This commentary on Klonopin being worse than heroin to withdraw from is something I’ve been hearing again and again since I entered the withdrawal world. I haven’t doubted it ever and just wanted to share it here.
That being said, I’ve also talked to people who found it harder to get off of neuroleptics than they did benzos or Klonopin. So I hope to be like these latter folks because the Risperdal has been sheer hell and I could use a break once I start withdrawing from the Klonopin. The spectrum of experience regarding psychiatric drug withdrawal never ceases to amaze me.