You can’t make an omelet without breaking eggs.
May 24, 2012 By giannakali
“If we fix on the old, we get stuck. When we hang onto any form, we are in danger of putrefaction.
“Hell is life drying up.
“The Hoarder, the the one in us that wants to keep, to hold on, must be killed. If we are hanging onto the form now, we’re not going to have the form next.
“You can’t make an omelet without breaking eggs.
“Destruction before creation.”
from: A Joseph Campbell Companion: Reflections on the Art of Living (Collected Works of Joseph Campbell)
I really enjoyed these quotes. They made me think of my namesake archetype Kali. I write a little about Kali here: Goddess Kali, an archetype that has been with me a long time
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Mindless Mindfulness and Sorting for Novelty (guest post by Duff McDuffee)
May 24, 2012 By giannakali
By Duff McDuffee from Beyond Growth
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Ellen Langer’s perspective on mindfulness continues to blow my mind the more I think about it and do it.
Mindfulness is often defined as “bringing all of one’s attention to the present moment” or “paying attention in a particular way.” But how should one bring all of one’s attention to the present moment? And what should one pay attention to in order to be “mindful”? And for what purpose does a person engage in mindfulness?
A frequently used mindfulness meditation technique is to notice the breath as it goes in and out. This task is very boring and done over long periods sitting upright can be very painful. They don’t tell you that in the marketing though! The benefits emphasized are things like gaining a more peaceful mind, “changing your brain,” reducing stress, and improving concentration. Let’s take the last claim. What is concentration exactly, and what kind of concentration do we want to develop?
Langer, professor of Psychology at Harvard, challenges the conventional notions of concentration in the context of learning in her book The Power Of Mindful Learning and in research she discusses in that book. Interviewing both students and teachers about what they think concentration entails, both students and teachers reported that concentration means fixing an image in your mind about something, and not seeing something from multiple perspectives or in several possible ways. This is frequently how information is presented in the classroom–there is one right answer, so memorize it and regurgitate it back on the test.
This kind of rigid thinking has been shown less useful for creative tasks–so-called “outside of the box thinking”–the kind of thinking that is essential for any application of information, even things like applying mathematics skills towards an engineering problem. Langer’s research has shown that teaching so that students are encouraged to see something in their minds in several ways or from several perspectives increases ability of students to creatively use such information in novel environments. It also makes learning more fun, and students taught in this way perform just as well on standardized tests.
Let’s face it–sitting in a rigidly upright posture and putting all of one’s attention on the sensations of the breath as it goes in and out is boring. Don’t believe the hype: there is nothing wrong with your mind if you don’t find this task inherently interesting. Perhaps the problem is with the task, with the kind of concentration being trained, like in the classroom when students fix a single image in their mind. Maybe it could be more fun and more useful to train a different kind of concentration or mindfulness.
Sometimes the instructions involve counting breaths or silently noting “breathing in, breathing out.” This is also boring. The instruction usually includes the injunction to let go of thoughts and bring the attention back to the breath, over and over. Most people find this task very difficult, nearly impossible at first. Almost nobody finds this activity naturally interesting and engaging.
Personally I get rigid and short-tempered when I do this too much, or even peacefully rigid and boringly concentrated. Langer herself points out how poor this task is for training an ability to pay attention in other environments because most contexts involve switching of attention from one thing to another, not focusing on just one thing for long periods. She still thinks the task might be useful for other reasons, but I have to agree that the positive carryover from such a task to the rest of life is minimal at best.
A much more fulfilling and naturally interesting task is to search for novelty, to purposely seek out the unexpected and new in ordinary experiences–even in very subtle ways. Here’s an example:
Take 30 seconds to close your eyes and imagine a tree. Notice everything you notice about that tree. Now go outside and compare your image of a tree to some actual trees. Pay attention to all the details that are different from your mental image, things you didn’t expect. When I did this I noticed my mental image was still, whereas all the trees I checked out had leaves and branches moving in the breeze. Futhermore, the trees are constantly changing, day by day, season by season. And these things are not just true for trees! Everything and everyone is constantly changing, albeit at different rates, ranging from the imperceptibly slow to the blazingly fast.
Langer’s version of mindfulness involves paying attention to novelty–how things are actually already always new and changing, and responding in a context-sensitive way to present-moment circumstances, instead of fixed ideas about things. Watching my breath is boring, but looking for novelty is always completely interesting.
Many mindfulness fanatics seem zombie-like to me. Groups of quiet people walking painfully slowly, a vacant smile upon their faces–what are they doing, exactly? That ever-quotable Albert Einstein is said to have said, “If a cluttered desk is a sign of a cluttered mind, then what are we to think of an empty desk?” Einstein was notoriously messy, so we can read this quotation not as “thou shalt clear thy desk” but that a perpetually clean desk indicates someone devoid of thought, a thoughtless and uncreative individual.
Interestingly, the mindfulness crowd overlaps with the minimalist desk crowd. Clean desk pornabounds online, with beautiful pictures of people’s meticulously organized, high-tech workspaces photographed and ogled by other connoisseurs of cleanliness. Nobody cares how messy Einstein’s desk was now though. In addition to his quotability, he is revered for his brilliance, creativity, and contribution to society. Do you want to be remembered for the cleanliness of your desk or for what you created when you sat there?
Langer’s kind of mindfulness doesn’t for me require the same kind of painful discipline of bringing one’s attention back to the breath, over and over like some sort of zombie. Nor does it end up with conforming to any fixed idea about enlightened living. Instead, in noticing how my fixed ideas about the world don’t quite correspond to what I actually observe, I am on the lookout for novelty. This naturally generates in me an attitude of curiosity, and doesn’t require any stillness or slowness or quiet whatsoever (nor does it necessarily advise against it). When I am mindful in this way, I am taking a dynamic and naturally creative stance towards a world packed with possibility.
Many people advocate mindfulness meditation in order to “tame the mind.” Taming the mind has long seemed problematic to me. Why would I want my mind to be tame? Such an approach presupposes that tame is better than wild, and puts me in a struggle against a playful monkey-like mind, swinging joyfully from limb to limb. Everyone I’ve ever met who says they have ADHD says so with a sense of shame in their voice, yet all of those same people are wildly and wonderfully creative individuals. Why control a wild mind? Why not utilize the wildness of our minds, use the novelty-seeking of compulsive Facebooking and Twittering to notice the novelty that is already present in daily life? …in the way the light casts a shadow on the desk? …in the way your ideas about a problem you have don’t quite fit the actual situation when you pay very close attention to the subtleties, thus freeing you from a fixed notion as to the resolution of the problem?
If you sit in the same position and notice the same breath and it feels the same, day after day, how can you call this mindfulness meditation? Unless you are noticing something new, or noticing the same thing in a new way, then what is being practiced is a fixed and rigid set of bodily postures and mental states. But if truly nothing is permanent as Buddha sayz, then trying to fix any state is ultimately futile and a cause of suffering. So if you choose to meditate, every day notice something new, because every day in every way something is new. No two days are the same, no two sits, no two breaths.
We can see Mindfulness then as the recognition of the continual newness of everything which comes from sorting for novelty. It is looking for things that you wouldn’t expect based on your ideas of the world, often which are very subtle. Reality is not subject to the dictates of our desires, so we’d better pay attention to what’s actually going on. And when we do, it’s always new!
Mindfulness has little to do with noticing your breathing, or moving slowly, or silence, unless those activities help you to notice or do new things. The point of a gaining a quiet mind is that you can think new thoughts, to stop thinking repetitively in fixed patterns, not so that you can rigidly repress thinking. If you notice the same things about your breath as you did yesterday when you meditate, you aren’t doing mindfulness meditation, more like mindless breath watching.
Mindfulness is noticing that my lady is not the same as she was yesterday, or five minutes ago, and responding to who she is now.
Mindfulness is noticing that each day at 6:10 when I drive home, the amount and angle of sunlight is subtly different than it was yesterday.
Mindfulness is questioning fixed rules and habits, whether they apply any more to the present context, and responding to what’s happening now.
Editor: I wrote a piece the other day that looks at meditation from a somewhat different perspective too: Life as a meditation: my contemplative adventure. Also, there are very good things about sitting and getting “bored” on occasion. I don’t imagine Duff would disagree with that either. I like to present ideas that allow for flexibility that people might actually try mindfulness in ways that will work for them.
By Ellen Langer:
● Counterclockwise: Mindful Health and the Power of Possibility
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Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond
May 23, 2012 By giannakali
This poem came to mind today via a friend who quoted one line from it, which I used in the title. It’s a favorite of mine and so I’m sharing it again today.

The Guest House
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
~ Rumi ~
More Rumi:
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A brilliant madness: more about John Nash of Beautiful Mind (the film)
May 23, 2012 By giannakali
Below is the full documentary from The American Experience about John Nash from the film A Beautiful Mind. Underneath that video I’ve included a cut and paste of another post which includes more commentary and two more videos of him in an interview where he reveals he only very briefly took medications and ultimately recovered med-free, contrary to what the story in the movie A Beautiful Mind
told. Once you see the American Experience, it’s clear that many things were left out or changed in A Beautiful Mind
. Not terribly surprising for Hollywood.
He also had a much more bumpy road once diagnosed than was revealed in many ways in the film including insulin coma “treatment”, which is also not really made clear in the film from what I remember. It’s truly amazing anyone recovers at all after such barbaric care. We continue to “care” for such people in crisis in barbaric ways today. See That’s Crazy. See also: About ECT a review of Linda Andre’s book: Doctors of Deception: What They Don’t Want You to Know About Shock Treatment
Of note: John Nash healed with the help of loving friends and family. Not by virtue of anything that was imposed upon him by psychiatry and also, as he put it, that his recovery was an act of will. His own.
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The previous post with an interview with John Nash:
The film A Beautiful Mind was about John Nash. There is some commentary about this film on Beyond Meds written by Bruce Levine. It’s worth reading. The story told in the movie was changed from the real events to create a politically correct view of mental illness being that one must take psychiatric drugs for the rest of one’s life. John Nash, instead, only took drugs for a brief period during crisis and then lived the great majority of his life without psychotropic medication.
I’ve posted the below videos before and since it seems to me the blog is forever getting new readers I’m posting it again. This is an important topic since John Nash is now one of the most famous “schizophrenics” alive and the public was lied to about his condition in the blockbuster movie.
John Nash in the below video says explicitly he never used psychiatric drugs again after an initial period of crisis and the movie was purposely misleading because the screenwriter’s mother was a psychologist enamored with psych meds and feared people would go off their meds if they knew the truth. Horrifying, isn’t that?
So, John Nash recovered from what is often labeled schizophrenia. The fact is there are countless others who also recover every day and are simply forgotten — the system and those who support long-term maintenance psychotropic drug use denies they were ever sick if they are mentioned.
But this is untrue. People recover and move on from such crisis all the time. There is a long list of such folks who share such stories here on Beyond Meds.
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"The seriously mentally ill die, on average, 25 years earlier than the general population..."
May 22, 2012 By giannakali
(exploring the source of a statistic)
Are you familiar with this oft-quoted statistic: “people with serious mental illness served by the public mental health system die, on average, 25 years earlier than the general population”? You see it everywhere – for example in TIME magazine, USA Today, and throughout the mental health blogosphere.
It comes from this 2006 report…
Wouldn’t it be easier to just deal with reality?
May 22, 2012 By giannakali
”We know that all is impermanent; we know that everything wears out. Although we can buy this truth intellectually, emotionally we have a deep-rooted aversion to it. We want permanence; we expect permanence. Our natural tendency is to seek security; we believe we can find it. We experience impermanence at the everyday level as frustration. We use our daily activity as a shield against the fundamental ambiguity of our situation, expending tremendous energy trying to ward off impermanence and death. We don’t like it that our bodies change shape. We don’t like it that we age. We are afraid of wrinkles and sagging skin. We use health products as if we actually believe that OUR skin, OUR hair, OUR eyes and teeth, might somehow miraculously escape the truth of impermanence.” – Pema Chödrön, from The Places That Scare You
More posts on Beyond Meds that feature Pema Chödrön’s work here.
Books by Pema Chödrön
● When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times
● Unconditional Confidence: Instructions for Meeting Any Experience with Trust and Courage
● Taking the Leap: Freeing Ourselves from Old Habits and Fears
● The Pema Chodron Audio Collection: Pure Meditation:Good Medicine:From Fear to Fearlessness
(I really loved this audio!)
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A deadly epidemic, psychiatric drugs
May 21, 2012 By giannakali
Below I excerpt a few lines from Dr. Alice Keys latest piece at Mad in America. She is a psychiatrist. She has been on the front lines. She’s seen the same things I saw when I worked in social services and she knows that the statistics that Robert Whitaker provides us with are accurate:
How Many Deaths Will It Take Till We Know?
I listened to a recent talk by Robert Whitaker that’s posted on Mad In America. Although I feel troubled by his report of the increasing numbers of Americans receiving disability payments for mental disorder diagnoses, I am more troubled by all the early deaths.
These deaths are very early deaths among patients taking psychiatric drugs. When I heard Mr. Whitaker quote one recent study that put the average age of death among a group of medicated patients at 45, I was stunned. Forty-five years old.
With such a large percentage of the American population taking psychiatric drugs, this is a deadly epidemic. This is a medical emergency. (read the rest)
I’m 47. I’m mostly unable to leave my house from the iatrogenic damage psychiatric drugs left me with. I do this blog that I might help others make better choices. I was not given a choice.
Today, drug-free, my mind and spirit are clear, but my body is wrecked. Please educate yourselves.
If you’ve not yet read Robert Whitaker’s seminal texts they come highly recommended:
● Mad in America: Bad Science, Bad Medicine, and the Enduring Mistreatment of the Mentally Ill
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Desire and deep longing
May 21, 2012 By giannakali
Embedded in desire is a longing to experience full love and aliveness. In this brief talk, we explore the process that carries us from fixation to fulfillment.
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More posts that feature Tara Brach on this blog:
● Accepting Absolutely Everything
● Our ideas are not truth: a little (funny) dharma lesson
● Gossip Demeans Ourselves and Others
I found both the below book and guided meditations greatly inspiring. These are excellent introductory materials that can apply to anyone regardless of whether one is drawn to Buddhism. Tara Brach is also a psychologist and draws from her practice when sharing her thoughts in the book.
● Radical Acceptance: Embracing Your Life With the Heart of a Buddha
(paperback)
● Radical Acceptance: Guided Meditations
(audio CD)
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Transforming Despair
May 21, 2012 By giannakali
The below is an excerpt from an interview with Joanna Macy from Personal Transformations:
Personal Transformation: In our society, we talk about despair as if it is primarily a psychological matter, coming out of personal life. Your understanding is that despair also comes from a different source.
Joanna Macy: Yes. I learned, when I began to work with groups 20 years ago, that despair arose in relation to something larger than individuals, personal circumstances. There is a complex of strong feelings that I call ingredients of despair. One is fear about the future based on what we’re doing to each other and to our planet. Another is anger that we are knowingly wasting the world for those who come after us, destroying the legacy of our ancestors. Guilt and sorrow are in the complex. People in every walk of life, from every culture, feel grief over the condition of the world. Despair is this constellation of different feelings. One person may feel more fear or anger, another sorrow, and another guilt, but the common thread is a suffering on behalf of the world or, as I put it, feeling “pain for the world.”
In American culture, we are conditioned to try to keep a smiling face and remain chipper at all costs. A lack of optimism somehow indicates a lack of competence. Feelings of despair are treated reductionistically as a function of personal maladjustment. This doubles the burden individuals carry. Not only do they feel bad about their world, but they feel bad about feeling bad.
Feeling the pain of the world is not a weakness. This is God-given or, put another way, an aspect of our Buddha nature. This openness of heart that characterizes the caring individual is a function of maturity. Don’t ever apologize for the tears you shed on behalf of other beings. This is, in its essence, not craziness, but compassion. This capacity to speak out on behalf of others, because you have the right to, because you can suffer with them, is part of our spiritual nature.
PT: Realizing that despair comes out of compassion legitimizes what people feel and provides a context for addressing what they feel.
Joanna: It also provides a context for action. It transforms the pain that isolated them.
PT: How are we to relate to despair?
Joanna: We have to honor and own this pain for the world, recognizing it as a natural response to an unprecedented moment in history. We are part of a huge civilization, intricate in its technology and powerful in its institutions, that is destroying the very basis of life. When have people had this experience before in our history? We ask people to relate to what they experience with respect and compassion for themselves. They’re not just griping and grumping. It is absolutely shattering when we open our eyes and see that we are actually, in an accelerating fashion, destroying the future.
PT: As people take in the staggering enormity of what we’re faced with, how do you address their sense of being insignificant and feeling overwhelmed, as if what they do will make no difference?
Joanna: People fear that if they let despair in, they’ll be paralyzed because they are just one person. Paradoxically, by allowing ourselves to feel our pain for the world, we open ourselves up to the web of life, and we realize that we’re not alone. I think it’s a cardinal mistake to try to act alone. The myth of the rugged individual, riding as the Lone Ranger to save our society, is a sure recipe for going crazy. The response that is appropriate and that this work elicits is to grow a sense of solidarity with others and to elaborate a whole new sense of what our resources are and what our power is. (read the rest here)
So often we blame all the wrong things for our despair. Really, it’s all so very simple. Sadly and tragically simple. We need to wake up.
Books by Joanna Macy:
● Active Hope: How to Face the Mess We’re in without Going Crazy
● Coming Back to Life: Practices to Reconnect Our Lives, Our World
● World as Lover, World as Self: Courage for Global Justice and Ecological Renewal
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Prison Abolition, Daniel Hazen: Madness Radio
May 20, 2012 By Will Hall
What is it like for a prisoner diagnosed with mental illness? Should we have more mental health treatment in prison — or should we work to abolish our prison system? Daniel Hazen spent three years in prison and experienced firsthand the ways prison creates madness. Today he is director of Voices of the Heart, a leading support agency run by and for people in recovery from a diagnosis of mental illness. ● The Caging of America ● Healing Justice ● Center for the Human Rights of Users and Survivors of Psychiatry ● Voices of the Heart
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