Marci killed her daughter in a bout of toxic reactivity to psych drugs

I got the below email in my inbox today. As I continue to heal from my own iatrogenic psychiatric drug induced brain disabling injury, I sometimes go into somewhat altered states that allow me to more deeply understand what is happening to all of us on these drugs. I have total awareness now and my behavior isn’t impacted but I can see how it might be if I wasn’t so practiced at mindfully watching the chaotic state of the brain.

Last night I entered a challenged state do to a reaction to a supplement. I sometimes still have reactions (the psych drugs left me hypersensitive) … the difference is I sit with the physiological and neurological reactions and allow them to teach me. I integrate the reaction and from that process I am more deeply healed. It’s hard work, this healing trip.

When, last night, I had my reaction (I’m recovered from it completely this morning…this stuff moves through quickly now, when it happens) I told my husband…“wow, I really see what happens when people just lose it and do crazy shit like kill their children. It’s totally an action done in toxic reactivity. It’s really not their fault. It’s horrifying. So many people devastated in these ways.”

The drugs cause the worst form of toxic reactivity there is…I know this. 

I woke up this morning to the below plea to help such a person and so, I feel the synchronicity demands looking squarely at my sister, Marci, who was unlucky enough to commit a heinous act during a bout of toxic reactivity. If you can help her please do in whatever way you feel called to do so.

I am heartbroken and again and again. We cannot abandon the least among us because we are all in this together whether we like it or not. We must start giving people love and support and not drugs which far too often cause further harm (seen or unseen). 

Please read her story at Mad in America. It’s very obvious given this woman’s history that this is a story of toxic reactivity to psych meds.

Hi Monica,

I’m a psychotherapist who is trying to help a former client who had a psychotic episode for the first time ever at age 43 due to psychiatric drugs.  During the psychotic episode, due to delusions, she killed her daughter and tried to kill herself.  She has never been psychotic before or since but has been locked up for over six years now.  I recently shared her story on and I’d like to have it get wider circulation.  We are trying to raise money for legal expenses on  Here is the link to the story: A Mother’s Very, Very Worst Nightmare.

Can you help out through your website or mailing list?  Marci and I would greatly appreciate it and it is an important story that needs to be told.

Thanks for whatever you can do.

Cindy Perlin, LCSW

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