I think a lot about why I can't work therapeutically with people in the mental illness system. I have found that the same traumatic dynamic comes up with some frequency outside that system too with "healers" of all stripes really...alternative doctors, energy workers, therapists of various sorts, you name it...if they are in the healing profession they've hurt me and people like me. Some of us are like magnets to people's ugliness. This is a sort of karmic phenomena for some of us and to change it we must become aware of how it works under the surface because it's not a conscious process for anyone involved. Clinicians are the worst because they're in a position of power and they deny that this is happening. That of course adds to the injurious nature of the dynamic. ...