almost a year since almost dying. what is up?

I’m approaching the one year anniversary date of the second brain injury that almost killed me. I entered the ICU on December 25th of last year. I was unconscious for several days and then when I woke up I had lost virtually all my memory. Conveniently and fortunately I remembered Paul, my partner, but so confused, I also thought he was one of the MDs in the hospital. So, yeah, it’s been a long haul to where I am now. …

Traumatic brain injury/psych drug brain injury (protracted withdrawal) — very similar apparently

I came across an article that’s very extensive and actually quite helpful in terms of tips  and validation about the vast myriad of possible manifestations of injury after an insult to the brain.  It’s written about  the more conventional  traumatic brain injury, you know, car accidents and violent blows to the head.  You will see that  our pharmaceutical brain injuries  are very similar in terms of “symptoms” and I think sometimes we have additional really horrible  strange somatic stuff that defies articulation …

Trauma, injury, illness and waking up

It’s strange how it works, or maybe it’s not, but trauma, injury and illness can truly be passageways to waking up and it’s not generally appreciated at all in western medicine which seeks to suppress everything and thus stop that process. Tragic really.   Illness/trauma etc as initiation and/or passageway to waking up is also […]

Emotional “dysregulation” is plasticity

while the healing process may sometimes be radical and even violent as well as time consuming, ultimately when we’ve healed, we’ve also transformed in profound ways. Indeed, this is becoming my experience. …

I experience my life now as far better than ever before…

I am alive. This I know and appreciate in ways I simply couldn’t at any other time of my life. *** A couple of musings to share: no more walls in my detox, but congestion still occurs as cellular debris marking every traumatic moment in my life moves on out… Detox…the nitty gritty Somatic mysticism: […]