I’m seeing a “holistic, orthomolecular” psychiatrist next week. When I asked her if she was willing to keep up with my disability paperwork if I chose to have her as my primary psychiatrist, her response was: “Well, you won’t be needing disability once you’ve withdrawn.” This assuming I follow her advice about how else to treat myself naturally. I know I’m already doing much of what she approves of. That was the first time I was hit with such complete confidence that my recovery was a sure thing. I was a little taken aback. I simply said, “well that would be nice.” And it certainly would.
It struck me that this might be overconfidence on her part or even arrogance–but I think, too, that it was simply encouragement. I don’t have to assume I’ll be disabled for the rest of my life. Thanks for the boost new psychiatrist.
It’s not that I haven’t had the hope of what she said. I have. I’ve read many people’s success stories. I guess it’s a little warped that I took so much pleasure from a psychiatrist saying it. I’m still under the spell of authority. It’s what got me in trouble in the first place. I will tread lightly.