I am filled with sorrow now. Though things really are working out with my husband, I am about to move into a cottage and live alone for a time. I need this. There is no doubt that I need this. But it is not pain free. It is agonizing. We both hurt. We hurt because... Continue Reading →
The next step: lamictal withdrawal process
In California I got down to 100 mg of Lamictal from an all time high of 400 mg. I've tapered it in two different stages first with 200 mg starting in March through May of last year then 100 mg this January. After the first 200 mg I was left so fatigued I took a... Continue Reading →
Where am I now?
My journey has become intimately internal. Having shed the majority of my drugs I now find myself staring at myself---a self I have never had the privilege to come to know. Right now I don't feel I can be particularly articulate about this part of my journey. That may change over time, but for now... Continue Reading →
More on recovery
Today in the Washington Post by someone who has been there. It's extremely encouraging to see work like this in a paper such as the Post.
Neuroplasticity of the Brain
Steven Morgan has once again submitted an excellent article he has written on the brain and mental illness. See here and here for other work he's done. Lots more on neuroplasticity here. Rethinking the Potential of the Brain in Major Psychiatric Disorders By Steven Morgan <stevenmorganjr@gmail.com> I. Questionable Theories The human brain is likely the... Continue Reading →
Hoping that by the end of the day I’ll feel like the song…
Unfortunately I couldn't find a better video, but the song is a classic. I have tentative plans to go out to dinner with my husband and a couple of friends. But I'm really not feeling so hot. I guess the traveling has really f*&$ed me up. It took about 10 days to settle after my... Continue Reading →
Life, happening as we speak
My life is in a bit of a shambles. Today I go to house sit for a friend for a week and then I'm finding my own place. I can't afford to move back to California but I need to live alone for a while. On the other hand I might go to the psych... Continue Reading →
Homecoming?
Where is home? This homecoming has not been sweet. I went straight into my overstimulated-hell hole after traveling and began immediately lamenting leaving CA. I'm not happy here and it's visceral. I watched a movie while in CA and it showed a scene of the Kentucky Mountains which look much like where I live and... Continue Reading →
The Journey
One day you finally knew what you had to do, and began, though the voices around you kept shouting their bad advice -- though the whole house began to tremble and you felt the old tug at your ankles. "Mend my life!" each voice cried. But you didn't stop. You knew what you had to... Continue Reading →