Month: February 2008

Seroquel is satan’s favored poison

photo of a box of seroquel

(from 2008  - the days I was still withdrawing from the cocktail) I've been having a rough time bouncing around. I went to San Francisco for a month. Came home for a week, went into town to house sit for a week, then came home to move into the cottage yesterday. Since coming home from San Francisco the bouncing around has left me very unstable without a sense of place. Half the time I haven't even known where I'm going to be living. The two nights before coming home to get my stuff to move into the cottage I had two sleepless nights. I felt completely out of whack last night and so I thought I needed to sleep whatever the cost. Nope, wrong. ….the cost of sleeping has been far greater than sleeplessness.

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A thoughtful piece that I must consider now

I am filled with sorrow now. Though things really are working out with my husband, I am about to move into a cottage and live alone for a time. I need this. There is no doubt that I need this. But it is not pain free. It is agonizing. We both hurt. We hurt because... Continue Reading →

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The next step in my withdrawal process

In California I got down to 100 mg of Lamictal from an all time high of 400 mg. I've tapered it in two different stages first with 200 mg starting in March through May of last year then 100 mg this January. After the first 200 mg I was left so fatigued I took a... Continue Reading →

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Happy Valentine’s Day

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Where am I now?

My journey has become intimately internal. Having shed the majority of my drugs I now find myself staring at myself---a self I have never had the privilege to come to know. Right now I don't feel I can be particularly articulate about this part of my journey. That may change over time, but for now... Continue Reading →

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More on recovery

Today in the Washington Post by someone who has been there. It's extremely encouraging to see work like this in a paper such as the Post.

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Neuroplasticity of the Brain

Steven Morgan has once again submitted an excellent article he has written on the brain and mental illness. See here and here for other work he's done. Lots more on neuroplasticity here. Rethinking the Potential of the Brain in Major Psychiatric Disorders By Steven Morgan <stevenmorganjr@gmail.com> I. Questionable Theories The human brain is likely the... Continue Reading →

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Hoping that by the end of the day I’ll feel like the song…

Unfortunately I couldn't find a better video, but the song is a classic. I have tentative plans to go out to dinner with my husband and a couple of friends. But I'm really not feeling so hot. I guess the traveling has really f*&$ed me up. It took about 10 days to settle after my... Continue Reading →

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Let’s lighten things up

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Life, happening as we speak

My life is in a bit of a shambles. Today I go to house sit for a friend for a week and then I'm finding my own place. I can't afford to move back to California but I need to live alone for a while. On the other hand I might go to the psych... Continue Reading →

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