I’m tired. And I’m not nearly done with my journey…
It’s looking like I have late stage adrenal exhaustion. I get test results on Monday and if I have it, which I have little doubt about at this point as I’ve talked to several professionals as well as read a ton of literature, healing from it takes up to a couple of years. Since I have the added extenuating circumstances of drug withdrawal it’s possible to imagine that I will be recovering at least as long as it takes to withdraw (another couple of years?) and then another year or two post withdrawal.
I don’t feel like keeping on telling my (at this point, dreary) story and I’m sick of dwelling on the insanity of mental health care. The criminality of doctors who don’t listen as well as the criminality of big pharma controlling what the doctors who don’t listen spew.
I need a break.
I hope I can find it in me to take one. When I’m well enough to leave my bed—that is when the adrenal dysfunction isn’t making me dizzy and nauseas and unable to walk, I hope to contribute to my candidates campaign. I hope this person will be in the race until November—it will give me something to do for 6 months.
I will look for other things to keep me away from this computer too.
I will leave this blog up as a resource and I will continue to accept comments. I may post from time to time—adrenal fatigue makes PMS worse and in the interest of full disclosure I’m in the throws of PMS now—my mind could change about all this—it’s happened before.
I will return to writing and blogging when I feel better. When I succeed. When I recover. I intend to let everyone know I made it. Interest has been expressed in a book, but I don’t feel like even considering that until I actually have a completed story to tell. I do hope that a success story is in the works.
Thank you everyone. I may or may not be around to all your blogs.
If you’re new here a good map to the blog is going to the tabs at the top of the page. Check out the “About” tab for starters. This remains a useful blog whether it’s being updated or not in that it’s an aggregation of resources about psychiatric drug withdrawal. I hope people continue to find it useful. I may add to the resources on the about page from time to time. I hope to clean it up and make it more user friendly too.
Oh—could y’all do me a favor if you’re comfortable doing so—if you have me in your side bar—put the proper name of this blog there. Psychiatric Drug Withdrawal and Recovery. It’s really not a blog about bipolar. The URL came about years before I even started this incarnation of the blog and it’s just not what this blog is about. You are of course free to choose how you’d like to list it—I realize the real name is long and unwieldy but I would like it if people find it based on what it is about.