I wrote about a study a week or so again showing that the mentally ill die more frequently where there is no mention of the DRUGS they prescribe these people being the CAUSE of all said diseases that are killing these folks. This careless disregard for the truth is so enraging I just want to... Continue Reading →
Message in a dream
I had a dream this morning. My brother, who died a little more than a year ago, the only family member I felt a real connection to, came to me and held my hand. He said, "I thought you'd realize by now that this is how Nature works." I responded, "I just didn't think Nature... Continue Reading →
Prescription drug injuries and deaths reach record levels
The LA times reports on the rise of prescription drug deaths. The total number of deaths, 4,824, was an increase of nearly 3 percent from the last calendar quarter of 2007 (here is the report). (via Pharmalot who goes into more detail about Chantix in particular the deadly stop-smoking drug that Pfizer has been dancing... Continue Reading →
Life’s questions—answers welcomed
So I've been depressed the last week or so. The whole brouhaha that came up around people harassing me has left me tender. But the real issues are much bigger. As I said in a former post my real problem is some sort of chronic fatigue and that is usually what is challenging me, not... Continue Reading →
Nightmare
I had a nightmare last night. Both my sister-in-law and my younger brother were dying. I awoke after giving my sister-in-law a kiss as she lay there on her death bed. Upon awakening I was struck with grief for my dead brother as fresh as the day he died. I wept out loud and spoke... Continue Reading →
In memory of a friend
The loss of my brother was not the first serious loss in my life. In fact, I lost someone who was much like a brother when I was about 21--he was a year younger than me and he died of AIDS---it was 1987---long before the advent of protease inhibitors. We grew up together in a... Continue Reading →
A message of love
This condolence was sent to me in a card. This beautiful man who has been my aunt's partner for 15 or 20 years wrote it to me. Surely your brother sowed a hopeful garden for many---in many places. In the twilight of his days, no greater love must have absorbed than the collective enduring embrace... Continue Reading →
The next chapter?
So I mentioned in a comment on someone else's blog I might not continue writing. And I may not, but for the time being I will continue with the purpose of this blog which is to document my journey off meds. At the moment I'm terribly disillusioned. I have withdrawal effects that have lasted about... Continue Reading →
Not gonna follow through
Yesterday I said I would post something light and silly today....Ha! Not an option. The last two nights I've woken up in the middle of the night crying--up for at least two hours. This morning I stayed in bed late and wished I didn't need to get up, but I had family obligations and errands... Continue Reading →
Dog is Love
After writing yesterdays post I took my dog for a walk. She is an absolute joy. She is a reminder of the beauty of life. She approaches everything with exuberance and loves us like no creature has ever loved me. At this time of somber searching she hints at the divinity of life for me.... Continue Reading →
The Roller Coaster that is my Life
Shit. Sometimes I just don't know how I'm going to continue down this road. Sometimes I feel so disheartened. The situation with my brother just keeps deteriorating and it won't stop until he's dead. I don't know if trying to continue my withdrawals during this period makes sense, but it's already going to take a... Continue Reading →