Mad Spiritual musings on diversity and inclusivity

Update 2026: This project never came to be. Tragically my friend Ian Scheffel died before we could manifest our vision. Still as a piece of history on this path I've found myself in, I am keeping this all of this in the archives. The below video was a favorite of mine. I took it down for a few years along with all my other videos. This one I did put back up. I still have dreams for sucha world in which community would include all of us. We want to create community and support for all of us who've experienced madness as having significant spiritual significance. Whether we've been psychiatrized or not and whether we've considered madness in terms of the psychiatric labeling or not. That would include anyone labeled with psychosis, schizophrenia, bipolar, schizoaffective, or psychotic NOS. That would also include anyone who has had experience with altered states that have not been pathologized by psychiatry, by self or others.

Chris Cole: Bipolar like Kanye West

In the latest episode of Waking Up Bipolar, Chris Cole speaks to the recent news of Kanye West coming out as bipolar, especially amid so much political and cultural controversy. ...

“PTSD” is not a disorder…it’s seeing beyond the veil and being horrified by what we see

When the horror of what the human condition really is becomes obvious (a brutally brainwashed majority that brutally harms one another) ... coming into balance with that darkness that is in every one of us takes some time and we also become DANGEROUS to the status quo, so while we are learning to integrate and contain this knowledge we become additionally vulnerable and at risk for harm. ...

Waking up, food intolerances and chronic illness

Waking up and healing the body of autoimmune, chronic illness etcetera - are destructive processes that then require rebuilding of both body & psyche. Healing, as an act of both destruction and creation, requires Kali energy. I was not consciously aware of this when she first entered my life. ...

I no longer hide

 2025: Actually I do hide quite often these days. I have tardive dyskinesia (iatrogenic injury, infection and brain injury), often referred to as a "movement disorder." Calling it a movement disorder is extremely misleading. It is much more than the visible movements that people can see. It is often excruciatingly painful and it can be crippling. I sometimes cannot walk. I often cannot speak. I hide because people are cruel to those who look strange or odd. I have been tending to my body for a long time so there are times when it's not visible and that is when I venture into the world. At home I am often nonverbal and sometimes a fall risk. Night time is when the "movements" get really bad. Tardive dyskinesia can cause freezing as well as a lot of "movement." Anyway. The healng process continues and it's clearly moving in the right direction and everything I just said is also true.

Something funny happens…

When I go out of the house now. I am almost completely bedbound while in the house and rarely leave my house now, though occasionally I can make short trips to the store or go for a ride in the car to look outside or whatever. I have regained the eyes of a child. The... Continue Reading →

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