My healing process is intense and relentless. I hit crises with some regularity and I go into an altered state in which the body knows exactly what to do to take care of it and slowly the body heals. The body does know what it’s doing. Yes. Conditioned mind just needs to get out of the way. It’s taking a long time because it was gravely injured and conditioned mind has deep roots. Yes. Conditioned mind just needs to get out of the way. It’s a process.
This healing process is frankly nightmarish too. No hyperbole whatsoever in that as a description. If I got creative I could write a brilliant horror script. I am serious. All that said, the process is also astonishingly beautiful. Life on the razor’s edge.
I love life more than anything and this for now is my life in this body, impacted as it has been. Loving the nightmare even while struggling with it is entirely possible. Paradox rules.
Messy human animal with the consciousness of all of life force Within Me.
There is no safety…there is only the law of the jungle and we’re in it…surrender to the jungle. The jungle will then hold us like a mama…Dance in the jungle like every other animal…we’ve forgotten the dance of the animal…
I am deeply grateful to have a place to utter these words.
UPDATE and example (my status update from FB ): Yesterday I was bedridden and shit was ugly. Today I went for an hour walk in the woods in the morning and then an hour HOT yoga class at 1 pm…such is the yoyo that is radical detox after being bedridden for years…it takes you places no one in health care knows shit about. I’m learning it on my own. Hell YEAH.
AND yes, I could use some compensation for the many 100s of hours I’ve worked with folks and on this site over the years. Working like we do and not getting any sort of compensation that I might live more comfortably in the face of continued challenges continues to teach us what we’ve learned from psychiatry. We must not be worth it. Let’s change that patterning. If I helped you or a loved one out, please help me back now. thank you.
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