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the last thing to come when one is healing from trauma is a thick skin...it does, finally come, however. it does. really it's not thick at all. it's porous and everything becomes clear and thus it's easier to move around the chaos and muck. clarity doesn't get rid of the muck! ...
I'm starting to share responses to general trends I'm reading in social media. I don't partake much in social media anymore. Not like I used to, but I am still ghosting around and seeing what is happening on the front lines of thought in critical psych and social justice. Below are some of the responses I've had to common themes that I felt like sharing.
NEW POST - On the razors edge - look to the right it's the shadow, hell, the abyss. Turn your head and it's the light...take in the whole entire shebang and you're right here right now. Heaven and hell. Living on the edge of everything. Tantra. The mystery of the unknown.
NEW POST -- I coined the term “somatic imperative” a while back as my journey seems locked in by what my body needs. In surrender I watch and learn as my body does what it knows. The animal wisdom, seemingly divine in nature takes over and knows the nature of things. These injuries this body has had to heal are mindblowingly complex. They are interwoven into the body and clearly show that the body and mind are one. I had no choice by to listen to and respond to my body in meditation so that I might heal. Try as I might, no one in medicine or anywhere else had answers. I had become my own doctor and scientist. I researched continually and started to put both my experience and that which I learned in reading together.
Ego anonymous: a practice -- I think of my "path" in many different ways. This is something I rewrote to work for me. The 12 step program didn't work out for me, but not because of the actual 12 steps which I found deeply inspiring. Unfortunately the people couldn't deal with what I was up against. Just like most of society. In the world of 12 steps as a young woman I was "the constituionally incapable." You know the people that even those in the 12 steps label as hopeless. Ha!
CODEPENDENT? The term codependency as it is commonly used is problematic. We are a species that relies on and survives because of interdependence on one another. In a relationship with two people stripped away from the extended family codependency is absolutely normal and healthy. The issue is awareness. Are we aware of how we impact one another? Are we in some form of self-inquiry or contemplation that helps us become aware of patterns and dynamics from our traumatic childhoods?
A post with a long quote from the book ...really really good. It's also instructive in terms of a somatic healing process which is really what I've been sharing for years. This author has articulated it with a brilliant clarity I've not seen before. ~~ "I know this may sound strange but so often what we are reacting to is not being able to tolerate what is happening in our own sensations, emotions and experiences. We react to get rid of the feeling, to push away the sensations, because they are associated with something intolerable, painful and uneasy."
We're all selfish human beings in training to become the lovers we are as well. The surviving animal must be "selfish." As we come out of pure survival, the species depends on us becoming lover. Love madly, passionately, indiscriminately. Start with your own selfish self.
I share what many might consider TMI (too much information) with some frequency. I'm going to explain why. First of all even when I do that most of my life remains private, just like everybody else. I am not an open book no matter what you might think about what I share. It is not possible to know me based only on what I've shared. People are too complex and what is shared is always only a piece of things.
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