Someone asked to know more about what I referred to as sub-personalities and parts in the last post: The somatic imperative and meditation — she thought that perhaps it was the drug withdrawal that created these parts. I responded:
no, it’s not the drugs or the withdrawal that causes the subpersonalities. They UNCOVER them when the nervous system gets trashed by the drugs in the withdrawal process and from overuse…everyone has them. We are in the unique position to totally heal them because they become obvious to us. Coming to understand this stuff allowed me to understand that there truly is a gift in this horrible situation we are forced to come through. Life is full of paradoxical wondrousness really…and I say this without diminishing how awful all of this can be too.
I never say this shit is a gift lightly or to someone who can’t possibly understand how that might be given the pain they are currently facing, but it is in fact true for me at this point. Also, there are entire therapeutic modalities that work with sub-personalities or what are also called “parts.” This is how our psyches work and function…everyone’s…coming to awareness about this stuff is what waking up is about. (at least in part)
today, this emerged from my psyche as well to share here with others for whom it might be helpful:
***The hurt and pained bully split off part***
I’ve told her she cannot bully me anymore. She is not love and she needs to come into love. I do not have to do everything she demands and we are in negotiations. She is out and rebelling because I let more and more love in. She gave up on love and doesn’t trust it anymore…in any shape or form….not for long anyway…sometimes she hides and watches when I enjoy some love…but then she comes out and says “FUCK THAT SHIT” because no one ever maintained any sort of consistent or safe love in her life…early on when it mattered.
More on topic:
- Song of the rejected shadow child
- Illuminate me: the rejected shadow child Part II
- Lessons the rejected shadow child learned in the Catholic church that she hated
*it is potentially dangerous to come off medications without careful planning. Please be sure to be well educated before undertaking any sort of discontinuation of medications. If your MD agrees to help you do so, do not assume they know how to do it well even if they claim to have experience. They are generally not trained in discontinuation and may not know how to recognize withdrawal issues. A lot of withdrawal issues are misdiagnosed to be psychiatric problems. This is why it’s good to educate oneself and find a doctor who is willing to learn with you as your partner in care. Really all doctors should always be willing to do this as we are all individuals and need to be treated as such. See: Psychiatric drug withdrawal and protracted withdrawal syndrome round-up
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