TD Update: I've come to believe that serious microbiome issues (lyme disease) and tardyve diskinesia are essentially the same thing. Such is the experience in my body. I have lyme disease -- with five documented pathogens involved. To be clear I don't embrace the diagnosis because it's highly problematic. It is helpful in getting some of the care I need.
We're all selfish human beings in training to become the lovers we are as well. The surviving animal must be "selfish." As we come out of pure survival, the species depends on us becoming lover. Love madly, passionately, indiscriminately. Start with your own selfish self.
Adding food back after elimination diets ~~ I was on elimination diets for a long time and needed to be in order to quiet down the chaos in my body. I now know more than when I started and hope that the general method of learning to listen is helpful to others since I know the details will be different for everyone. Recently I went through a stint of eating gluten and cheese. As I add many different foods I avoided for many years back into my diet, I jokingly call it "retoxification."
Learning about how to listen to the body takes time. Small things we can start paying attention to help. One thing that really helps is learning to taste your medicine. *** It's best when we can taste our medicine which is one fundamentally critical difference from pharma. Herbs and food have taste that prepare the body for what is coming. And as we pay attention over time the tastes start communicating information about our body in this moment. When we take pharmaceutical chemicals we don't taste them and they're foreign to the body thus making it highly problematic.
Healing (for me) didn't mean killing off all micro-organisms indiscriminately. It meant bringing balance by moving out excess of the ones making me sick and building up with other more expansive ones. These little guys have consciousness. They'e part of us and work together with us. Imbalances is what make us sick. Healthy people have the same bugs in different proportions. Getting healthy means learning to bring it all to balance. I call it internal eco-system management. This goes along with many other aspects of the body for me since my entire autonomic nervous system got blown out. It was an exceedingly complex process after being bedridden and atrophied for some years.
( these brief comments are regarding the above image) let us all shoot for action and be patient with ourselves and others while we more frequently inhabit the other layers...compassion for ourselves and others both is more important now than ever.... *** See this article: the below comments are response to it: Corona virus and... Continue Reading →
first! thanks to those of you who have made donations towards my yoga teacher training. I'm now officially enrolled. I'm excited. It's the first ongoing commitment I have made (outside of my home) in 10 years. I was explicit about my limitations and they remained enthusiastic about my participation. I will continue taking donations. I've paid for one third of the $3000 tuition fee. I have until June to finish paying in monthly installments. Any help will continue to be much appreciated. ***and now some regularly scheduled odds and ends for your perusal:
I never quit smoking and I don't smoke anymore. What I did was start mindfully smoking. I started to feel every bit of the smoking process -- both the deliciousness and the toxicity of the smoke as it entered my mouth, into my lungs tingle in all my cells. I smoked every cigarette like it... Continue Reading →
All there is, is nature. To nature I surrender. *** Sometimes being overwhelmed is the only way through. *** We're all profoundly unique and complex and it's really, just the lack of understanding that fact alone, that makes western medicine so dangerous for the sensitive among us. We must be met as individuals and not all of us be treated with the same pharmaceutical hammer. (Iatrogenic *medical* injury) Holistic branches of healers also suffer from this inability to see uniqueness. Capitalism makes it so. It is the authority of acting like they know something that makes what they are selling marketable. Buyer beware.
Heavy metals are just one really heinous environmental toxin that gets into the nervous system and exponentially potentiates "negative" emotions (as well as being painful in ways that go far beyond what most people can conceive of and is associated with all manner of chronic illness and other infections all across the population...which is why the medical establishment shrinks away from the reality and calls people crazy, etc). It's messed up and only people who have experienced the detox in its extremes really know it--most people teaching detox are working in the dark. ...
Coming to love our "negative" feelings is part of the deal when we're healing. The parts we like the least must be incorporated. You've got to love those babies too. The problems start when we deny of those types of feelings. That's when they get ugly. No feelings are bad. Feelings are neutral. feeling them is not acting on them. We must feel them if we hope to ever come into flow. ...
