CODEPENDENT? The term codependency as it is commonly used is problematic. We are a species that relies on and survives because of interdependence on one another. In a relationship with two people stripped away from the extended family codependency is absolutely normal and healthy. The issue is awareness. Are we aware of how we impact one another? Are we in some form of self-inquiry or contemplation that helps us become aware of patterns and dynamics from our traumatic childhoods?
A return from the dead
Why did I mostly stop writing? Because I was dealing with something I no longer knew how to talk about. Mostly because people really don't like reading about disability. All the able-bodied ableists who want to pretend that somehow disability must be the fault of the person suffering from it. Yeah. Lots of my readers too. The comments became unbearable and remain that way. I mostly keep them turned off. (2026: I've turned my comments back on these days ... the site is quieter now that I don't engage in social media much) I've written a few new pieces on my own idiosyncratic experience of TD. I thought I'd share with you Robert Whitaker's long and well-researched piece. )
TD update
TD Update: I've come to believe that serious microbiome issues (lyme disease) and tardyve diskinesia are essentially the same thing. Such is the experience in my body. I have lyme disease -- with five documented pathogens involved. To be clear I don't embrace the diagnosis because it's highly problematic. It is helpful in getting some of the care I need.
Buzzing words come
We're all selfish human beings in training to become the lovers we are as well. The surviving animal must be "selfish." As we come out of pure survival, the species depends on us becoming lover. Love madly, passionately, indiscriminately. Start with your own selfish self.
Gluten, dairy etc: Adding food back after elimination diets
Adding food back after elimination diets ~~ I was on elimination diets for a long time and needed to be in order to quiet down the chaos in my body. I now know more than when I started and hope that the general method of learning to listen is helpful to others since I know the details will be different for everyone. Recently I went through a stint of eating gluten and cheese. As I add many different foods I avoided for many years back into my diet, I jokingly call it "retoxification."
Herbalism Tip: Taste Your Medicine
Learning about how to listen to the body takes time. Small things we can start paying attention to help. One thing that really helps is learning to taste your medicine. *** It's best when we can taste our medicine which is one fundamentally critical difference from pharma. Herbs and food have taste that prepare the body for what is coming. And as we pay attention over time the tastes start communicating information about our body in this moment. When we take pharmaceutical chemicals we don't taste them and they're foreign to the body thus making it highly problematic.
Getting healthy means coming to balance (Lyme too)
update: I did test positive for lyme and several co-infections in 2020 I had multiple infections that responded to Lyme disease treatment. I never tested positive for Lyme and gave up on doctors after that. Healing (for me) didn't mean killing off all micro-organisms. It meant bringing balance by moving out excess of the ones... Continue Reading →
Critical contemplations and observations for the pandemic and beyond
( these brief comments are regarding the above image) let us all shoot for action and be patient with ourselves and others while we more frequently inhabit the other layers...compassion for ourselves and others both is more important now than ever.... *** See this article: the below comments are response to it: Corona virus and... Continue Reading →
~~ don’t chase and don’t run away from feelings ~~ (and yoga teacher training update)
first! thanks to those of you who have made donations towards my yoga teacher training. I'm now officially enrolled. I'm excited. It's the first ongoing commitment I have made (outside of my home) in 10 years. I was explicit about my limitations and they remained enthusiastic about my participation. I will continue taking donations. I've paid for one third of the $3000 tuition fee. I have until June to finish paying in monthly installments. Any help will continue to be much appreciated. ***and now some regularly scheduled odds and ends for your perusal:
Tobacco, addiction and healing
I never quit smoking and I don't smoke anymore. What I did was start mindfully smoking. I started to feel every bit of the smoking process -- both the deliciousness and the toxicity of the smoke as it entered my mouth, into my lungs tingle in all my cells. I smoked every cigarette like it... Continue Reading →

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