The parts that have been shamed and silenced must come out if we are to heal and be whole. I will never again be shamed or silenced. Psychiatry is an institution that practices both shame and silence against those it “serves.” In freeing myself I say FUCK YOU PSYCHIATRY. What psychiatry and the medical field in general perpetrated against me is the final traumatic wounding I must clear that I might finally be free. The institution with its trained minions refused to hear me. Refused to see me. And in so doing poisoned me to the point of death. That I survived is a miracle. That I speak is a miracle. I am a fucking miracle!!! Hallelujah!
Update: someone on facebook said it’s like a knife (the pain)…and that’s so true…I experience that somatically and acutely…feeling stabbed…in my third eye and heart…piercing agonizing pain of betrayal…trauma cuts deep.
Who has betrayed us? Society and everyone in it. Psychiatry is an instrument of society and all its members are complicit. The only way out is complete de-conditioning. Letting go of the conditioned self.
And finally, to be clear, I also said this in response to something that came up in social media:
I feel beauty and love all the time…this cycling through pain is a purging process…an unlayering to meet the beauty inside, finally and completely. and that is exactly what’s happening…that I’m publicly sharing…simply meeting the truth within …and the muse tells me to share…so perhaps others too will find a way to purge the pain and find the loving heart within…I know this somehow even when I am in pain now…I do what I must. I live the somatic imperative.
I know that too many of us are not met in this anguish. I know that sharing this information helps people feel met, even if just a little bit. From there we can learn to more deeply meet ourselves and ultimately let go of all of this that we be free. It’s doable.
Learn to process shame:
And remember THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU
*it is potentially dangerous to come off medications without careful planning. Please be sure to be well educated before undertaking any sort of discontinuation of medications. If your MD agrees to help you do so, do not assume they know how to do it well even if they claim to have experience. They are generally not trained in discontinuation and may not know how to recognize withdrawal issues. A lot of withdrawal issues are misdiagnosed to be psychiatric problems. This is why it’s good to educate oneself and find a doctor who is willing to learn with you as your partner in care. Really all doctors should always be willing to do this as we are all individuals and need to be treated as such. See: Psychiatric drug withdrawal and protracted withdrawal syndrome round-up
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