The IT GETS BETTER collection is intended to help those who are currently dealing with the iatrogenic (medically caused) injury from psych meds…so that they might know that we can heal. It is also intended to help educate the masses to the realities that we face. Protracted psychiatric drug withdrawal syndrome is real. It’s also sometimes gravely disabling. The fact is it’s largely denied in the medical community. We are routinely blamed and told that the experience is psychiatric…this leads to more drugging and sometimes forced drugging with the very drugs that have harmed us. This must end.
But yes, to those who are still suffering, it gets better. Indeed, I do not consider myself ill anymore. I consider myself HEALING which is a vibrant state of movement and change. My limitations do not mean that I am sick. Learning to make boundaries for my well-being has been one of the healthiest things I’ve learned to do. Deeply respecting the needs of this body/temple is one of the most wonderful achievements of WELLNESS.
NOTE: the below symptoms can be found in any protracted psychiatric drug withdrawal syndrome and are not limited to benzodiazepines. The autonomic nervous system is potentially impacted by all the different classes of psych meds and thus these neurological symptoms can be seen when coming off any class of psych drug.
#11 from the IT GETS BETTER series
first published MAY 18, 2010
Speech Psych Drug Withdrawal Symptoms (Dysarthria)
I find the inability to speak most of the time one of the hardest symptoms I deal with as it exponentially increases the sense of isolation one feels and friends and family simply don’t understand why I can’t communicate more often. That said, thank god I can type, though I’m also compromised to read and write. My brain does familiar things well enough, but negotiating conversation (in writing) or reading stuff outside of that which is familiar to me is daunting and cognitively difficult. I only read a tiny fraction of the material that gets posted on this blog. People often make the assumption I read all that I post on the blog and it’s just not true. I am good at collecting information and recognizing material of interest. I guess it’s because I’m using familiar neural pathways and it’s extremely perfunctory work.
I continue to improve physically. I actually sat for about an hour today while on the internet rather than lying down as I have had to for over a year. Sitting has been as difficult as standing, oddly enough, so I didn’t sit at all for a year in order to use my “up” time to go to the bathroom or other necessary things on my feet. I’m also starting to stretch a lot, yoga style and do tiny amounts of exercise. Like peddle a stationary bike for a minute at a time. It’s exciting. My body really wants to get better and it’s happening.
On the other hand, also today, when I spoke with my husband to share my excitement that I’d been up and doing more than usual I was stuttering to a huge degree. The speech and verbal problems are not getting better, though many of them remain intermittent and not constant.
I’m still unable to go out as the acute sensitivity to stimuli continues though it varies some as well, being out it still way too much. Things are undeniably continuing to improve but I’m far from well and frustration is still a common feeling. I want so much to DO.
(That was written a couple of days ago. Since then I’ve had another day with acute pain and the inability to be up for more than a couple of minutes…yes this is a roller coaster ride and it sucks)
The purpose of this post was to share this from the benzodiazepine withdrawal board regarding speech withdrawal symptoms. This is written by another member of the board. Following this is my response:
Throughout my taper and withdrawal my biggest problem has been Dysarthria or speech problems or whatever you want to call it. I have searched the internet up and down in hopes of finding someone with my identical symptoms and a success story of them going away. Of course, this doesn’t exist. So, instead of continuing to search, I’m going to document these symptoms and hopefully at some point report that they went away for future suffers and searchers.
I realized there is a name for these speech symptoms: “Dysarthria”. Dysarthria is a motor speech disorder resulting from neurological injury, characterized by poor articulation. Dysarthria represents just one part of the symptoms. Here is my list. If anyone wants to add additional speech related symptoms, please do. Apparently these symptoms are more common in Klonopin withdrawal, but can be present from any benzo withdrawal.
- Slurring speech: For me this is mainly vowel sounds. The “ee” in need. Or, the “an” in anything. An example would be saying “do you need anything else from me.” The “eed any” would all run together.
- Choppy speaking
- Problems reading aloud and reading to one’s self
- Problems selecting words
- Saying the wrong words/ mixing up words
- Numbness and tingling of roof of mouth, lips, tongue, and nasal cavity (especially on left side)
- Feeling of gravel in mouth
- Sores in mouth:
- Mental block on talking: this is hard to explain. It’s just feeling of not wanting to talk or carry on a conversation
- Anxiety with talking: This is probably a result of all the symptoms listed above
These symptoms fluctuated during my taper, and were at their worst during my first two weeks after my last pill.
Have they gotten better? Yes, but is very slow unlike the improvements of my other symptoms. My anxiety, brain fog, motivation, and other symptoms went away within 3 months of my last pill. These have improved, but the improvement seems to be slow.
I am three and half months out as I write this. I promise to return and update this post as these symptoms hopefully recede completely. If anyone else wants to chime in with similar speech symptoms, hopefully that have improved, please do.
my response to this post is below. This is from about 3 weeks ago:
I have many of those problems intermittently but not all of them…
Strangely and not part of your list I also stutter quite dramatically occasionally and I’ve never been a stutterer…
of the symptoms you list I have:
#10 (I am occasionally completely mute)
#11 (talking generally causes major heart palpitations, so I’ve quit talking as much as possible)
Thanks for putting this together. I am at almost 3 months I will let people know how and when these issues resolve.
The above posts from the benzo board are a few weeks old. I’m now past 3 months but still having these issues.
NOTE: the above symptoms can be found in any protracted psychiatric drug withdrawal syndrome and are not limited to benzodiazepines. The autonomic nervous system is potentially impacted by all the different classes of psych meds and thus these neurological symptoms can be seen when coming off any class of psych drug.
I don’t have these speech problems anymore.
The below are posts that show how far my healing has come, because it really does get better even if sometimes at a glacial pace.
For an article with the history of my tale of wild untested psychopharma gone bad visit Dr. David Healy’s website: Monica’s story: the aftermath of polypsychopharmacology
Please do not attempt to discontinue psych drugs without first very carefully educating yourself on the risks involved so that you might minimize the chances of developing grave iatrogenic illness if you decide to withdraw: Psychiatric Drug Withdrawal and Protracted Withdrawal Syndrome Round-Up