As one opens up to the pain of the past one heals so that one can move into the future….
(Update Nov 2015) — It is through such methods of close attention to the body/mind/spirit that my healing has progressed at all. It is the foundation of everything I have learned during this healing process. I have, at this point, developed my own way of doing this stuff but I continue to learn by comparing notes with others who do similar work towards their own healing and awakening.
Focusing is one method of body oriented meditation. Will Hall writes about it here. I was influenced early on by reading the book about it. Today, I came upon the below quote by Eugene Gendlin, the author of of the book and thought I would share it here with some additional thoughts and links to related posts. Certainly this sort of meditative process is part of my own healing experience.
Many of us spend a life time avoiding our emotional pain and it does become more and more toxic as long as we keep it buried. It will literally make us ill, physically and mentally as Bessel van der Kolk talks about in the book, The Body Keeps Score. The little quip, “What you resist, persists” has proven very true in my life. The only way out of that trap is to stop avoiding and learn in whatever way makes sense to us as individuals to feel once again and to embrace and absorb and therefore transform the pain of our lives. This is how I am healing.
What is split off, not felt, remains the same. When it is felt, it changes. Most people don’t know this. They think that by not permitting the feeling of their negative ways they make themselves good. On the contrary, that keeps these negatives static, the same from year to year. A few moments of feeling it in your body allows it to change. If there is in you something bad or sick or unsound, let in inwardly be, and breath. That’s the only way it can evolve and change into the form it needs. – Eugene Gendlin
This seems to be a theme today as I just made some related comments in one of my chronic illness groups. Here are a few of those comments, edited just a wee bit for this site:
Coming back into the body has been critically important to me as well. I have a practice of deeply diving into the body sensations I have…even and most especially painful ones…not all the time (not in a masochistic fashion) but often…because my body speaks to me…somatic trauma release…it’s full of information in my experience that allows for growth and healing both.
I’ve found several programs that are focused on this work that helped inform what became my own version of what I now do with my body. I’m happy to share those — different spiritual teachers teaching body oriented meditations…they were all very helpful to me. Really what they did was help me understand what I was already sort of doing and they gave me permission to trust what I was doing. They are not taught (mostly) by folks who’ve been seriously ill like most of us have been, but that didn’t matter to me.
*NOTE: if you are in the throes of early and/or acute psychiatric drug withdrawal syndrome spending much time in the pain of the body is truly impossible. For ideas of how to begin when the body is screaming with that sort of chaos perhaps this post will help: Life as a meditation: my contemplative adventure. The fact is when our body is in crisis we need to start with tiny, baby steps and let the body take it’s time to heal too. Please be gentle with yourselves. The information in this post may be something you’d like to revisit in the future when you’re ready for it.
I will share the programs I mention above here since I’ve done previous posts on them:
- Body-Centered Inquiry
- Inhabiting our bodies in meditation
- “I wrote a new story for my nervous system” — neurosculpting, neuroplasticity
These too may be helpful:
- Trauma, Fixation and Reactivity – (Somatic Experience)
- Trauma release exercises (or tension release too) — the body speaks
- Healing Somatic Meditation (welcoming prayer)
- Restoring the Body: Yoga, EMDR, and Treating Trauma
- Yoga for trauma: reclaiming your body
- The body keeps score — scroll down for many posts on this important book
See also more: Healing trauma links