My condition has been getting progressively worse. I no longer am able to do some of the little things I enjoyed like cooking in 5 minute increments with lots of breaks.
I now can essentially only get up to go to the bathroom and occasionally I can handle a trip to the fridge or to get a drink of water.
I am in constant pain and nausea. I barely eat and have lost 50 lbs.
This morning I woke up and I knew I could no longer do this. I have no quality of life. I am 100% dependent on others to meet my needs. It is no longer a tenable existence as long as there are possibilities out there and I do believe there are.
I called the same detox center I referred my friend to. I called my mom, dad, sister and cousin all of whom have more money than we do.
I now have the cash I need. I’m trying to work things out with the center to take me and my friend as part of the deal. I’m a full paying customer and she can pay whatever amount she manages to fund raise as a down payment. I’m hoping they’ll go for that.
So now again I ask for you to help my friend. I believe the odds of getting her in are now increased because I’m going and I’ve had a relationship with the director there for a while.
Please, please help. The more money we have to offer as a down payment the more likely they’ll take her. I’m not sure where we’re at now but I’d say it’s about $1200.
Click the funny link…the button does not work.
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Please NO CAUTIONS about the dangers of detox centers!! NONE. I have done a ton of research and I know the pros and cons. Only good wishes allowed. If you have nasty things to say go tell it to a wall.
If you’d prefer to mail a check please ask for my mailing address.
i’m finally catching up here and i’m heartbroken. however, both you and your friend need treatment and need these disgusting toxins out of your body. it saddens me that you’re both in this situation and makes me count my blessings. you are too special and unique and beautiful and inspiring to be going through all of this. my heart is with you. my love is with you. (no matter how busy i get) please know that. i want you well. i love you my beautiful girl.
I am so confident that you know your way. Much admiration and respect!
If things go downhill fast, they can all go up hill fast. Just because you are ill today doesn’t mean you won’t be on the improve tomorrow. Strong emotions pass. They always do. The trouble is, when you are feeling bad, it is difficult to see the way out.
this is not an emotional hurdle I’m dealing with…I’m physically ill…read more before making comments please.
Gianna you and your friend are in my thoughts right now….positive energy…we are all on this rocky road together and thank goodness we have each other….take care…
ps. I wish i could donate but currently we are living with family b/c we are so broke.
Gianna, I’m pulling for you. You are do for a change in your health, girlfriend! I’m selfishly very glad you’ll be able to stay in touch while you’re there. This blog is a lifeline for me.
Hugs and prayers for your recovery,
Deborah
My thoughts are with you G. I’m sending lots of hugs. I know you’ll be updating us on your progress as best you can, and I’ll be sending my best positive energy your way. You are going to recover, I am sure of it.
I could never imagine you are feeling this way. I’m very sad.
It’s a very good to go some place where you can receive help and stop worrying what you can do and what you cannot do.
I came to give you this award and I hope you like it.
http://justana-justana.blogspot.com/2009/04/blogger-award.html
Be at peace.
Take care Gianna,
I think about your often during the day.
Gianna,
You’re both in my thoughts.
Duane
Gianna,
We don’t know each other but I am praying for you….
Wendy Love
thank you Wendy…I appreciate it, truly.
maybe I’m nuts…but I’m planning on keeping on blogging while I’m there..they have wireless and we’re pretty much free to do what we want…
so we’ll see…I of course don’t know what I’ll be able to do…I’ve not been able to do much today…I’m definitely getting sicker…but I also need to do a taper tonight…I can tell I’m toxic again.
Gianna,
I mailed a check to you this morning. You are like a sister to me and while I know I will miss you terribly I know it’s for your best.
Maybe Paul can post updates here so we will know how you are doing.,
Love always,
Susan
I’ve been locked out of my paypal account due to fraud but I just figured out how to donate WITHOUT paypal, so look for my donation on the way. I am so sorry for you and your friend, and scared, that I’m addicted to my 2mg klonopin – stopped taking it for a week and got REALLY sick and couldn’t sleep – I feel good about donating to this, like it’s a sisterhood. I know that if I am ever unwillfully incarcerated in Hell- I mean Herrick- you and your friend would help me out. All we have is each other, in this. And that’s a lot.
You will have quality of life again. My very best to you and your friend.
sending huge well wishes for both of you. I do hope that they’ll take your friend as well. (((gentle hugs)))
I thot you were doing well. 🙁 I’m sorry you need to do this – but I pray it turns out really well for you and that you will be able to do more soon.
God bless you and I hope you feel MUCH better soon,
🙂
thank you Laura and bplife…
Moss…you are forever donating your love!!
I’ll miss you… please keep in touch. Wish I could donate something.
Speedy and complete recovery that is.
I can’t give much but will be donating today. I am so very sorry to hear that you are so unwell. My thoughts for a speedy and complete will be with you and your friend. Take care.
I’m so very sorry to hear that you’re doing so poorly Gianna. Hopefully this place will give you the kind of help you need. You’re in my prayers.